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37.

37. yes
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I was back at Hogwarts rather quickly. I didn't get a few days to stay home and recharge, I didn't get to spend my train ride back sleeping. I had a lot of catching up to do, which meant a pile of homework. My eyes and brain hurt by the time we got back to the castle. I packed my things silently and Pandora grabbed my hand, walking out beside me.

"Are you okay?" She whispered even though nobody was around.

"Yep," I replied shortly, "just tired." She nodded, not pushing the conversation any further, she was probably tired too. As soon as we got into the castle, I let go of her hand and made my way to Gryffindor Tower, dropping everything carelessly in my dorm before falling onto my bed. I was mentally exhausted, I couldn't comprehend anything anymore, and the pounding headache wasn't helping whatsoever. With the last stretch of energy I had in my body, I dragged my ass to the bathroom, wanting to take a relaxing bath. 

I sat on the tile floor, scrolling endlessly through my phone while the tub filled up and bubbles formed. Baths were only acceptable if it had plenty of bubbles. When the water was hot and ready, I prayed I wouldn't fall asleep and drown in the tub as I got in. I felt my muscles immediately relax as the warmth engulfed me, this was something I could get used to. My phone buzzed on the stone floor consistently, either someone was spam texting me, or calling. I reached over the edge and picked up my phone, answering the call without much of a second glance at the caller ID for some reason. "Hey," I answered, sighing heavily.

"I didn't think you'd pick up." I ripped the phone from my ear, finally looking at who was calling, making sure I wasn't crazy or that my mind was playing tricks on me.

"Hi... Mattheo."

"Where've you been these last few days? You kind of left without much of a word." he sounded tired and worries. "I've called, I've text, I've even resorted to emails. Why is it only now you answer?" I sat up straight, guilt and sadness building in my stomach.

"Can you... can you come to my dorm? It'll be easier to explain in person," I whispered, swallowing hard.

"Yeah. Of course. Is everything okay?" A lot of shuffling and hurried actions were audible on his end of the phone, he was probably getting ready to leave now. I got out of the tub, wrapping a towel around me and draining the water.

"I'll explain it all in a bit, okay?" We ended the call and I hurried to change, looking a bit more presentable instead of looking like a wet blob in a red towel and soap suds. I quickly brushed through my hair, throwing it up into a ponytail and changing into my pyjamas. Just as I put my sock on, there was a light knock on my door. With a quick wave of a wand, I opened the door and Mattheo cautiously walked in, shutting it gently behind him as if there was a monster that could awake at any given moment. "Are you okay?" I whispered, crossing my legs as I gestured for him to sit with me on my bed.

"Are you?" He whispered back. His hair was messy, curls lying out of place and his eyes looked heavy and tired, as if he hadn't slept since I was last here.

"I'm better than I was before I had to leave," I answered. I stared at his fidgeting hands, wondering, debating if I should take them in mine, to comfort him. What were we? What would it mean?

"Why did you leave?" Mattheo asked, holding eye contact, searching for an answer.

"My parents got a divorce," I sighed, telling him straightforwardly. It would've been more painful to ease into the conversation, I wanted this all to be over and done with. "My mother wanted full custody of me, probably to make my life a living hell," I spat, anger boiling my blood again. "That bitch got what she deserved. I get to stay with my dad."

"I'm sorry you had to go through that, Edith. I wish I could've been there with you, comforted you through it all." I looked back at Mattheo, staring into his eyes as they looked back at me.

"Everything is fixed now," I said, "it lifted a huge weight from my shoulders. I didn't even know it was there, because I was carrying it for so long."

"You're stronger for it." My stupid eyes couldn't help but wander down to his lips, they looked soft and familiar. He noticed immediately, and he stared at my lips too.

"Mattheo?" I started, holding my breath as the gap between us slowly got smaller and smaller. 

"Hmm?"

"What are we?" I was scared for the answer. What did we want to be? What did he want? What did I want? What if we did get together, but what if it doesn't work out?

"What do you want us to be?" I swallowed, thinking. I think I knew the answer but part of me didn't want to say it out loud. "What is it that you want, Edith?" Our lips were hovering over each other, all I had to do was lean closer.

"I want- I want you," I breathed, pushing my lips onto his, making the fireworks fly and the butterflies tickle the inside of my stomach. He gently pushed me to be lying down, not breaking the kiss as he entwined our fingers together. "I like you," I confessed once we finally broke apart for a bit of air. "I don't know why, or when, or how, but I do. No matter how much I want to deny it." Mattheo shook his head, pushing his hair back to get strands out of his eyes.

"I really like you more. I don't know why, or when, or how either, but I do. Nothing you can do or say can change that. I just want you. The good, the bad, all of it." My hands -with a mind of their own- reached up, unbuttoning his shirt as I stared into his eyes as they turned hungry. "You want to?" I nodded. "Verbally, angel."

"Yes. Do you?"

"Yes. Always." I discarded his shirt and he discarded mine, kissing my neck as I fought to make a noise. He kissed and nipped at my skin all the way to my shoulder and back up to my neck, taking in every part like an art museum. "You okay?"

"Yes."

"Can I?"

"Yes."

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hey hey hey :)
you're so welcome for the medith content (sounds like a drug-)
mmmm
lemme list all the possible ship names and y'all can choose which y'all like best

medith (drugs-)
etheo (ancient fantasy world name what-?)
row (riddle+snow)
sniddle (snow+riddle)
matthith (ma-thith)

i ran out of ideas/possible combos-
lemme know which y'all prefer T-T
or if i should just stick to mattheo and edith...

anyways
i wrote this chapter pretty quickly ngl (so it prob sucks... and i'm sick so that makes it worse)
i legit can't breathe guys T-T
and my throat is killing meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

anyways
if you had to pick an animal to be for the rest of your life, which animal would you be?
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and
would you still love me if i was a worm?
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MWAH
kisses and croissants 💋🥐