Letters to Jimin

#Letter 30

Hi there.....

How are you doing today?? Hope you are doing well and started to enjoy the different life and experiences that you are getting there. I hope you are sleeping well and your days are less hectic and you feel calmer than ever before.

Recently, I started to volunteer for therapy sessions. It's for a friend who is doing a course in psychology and they need to complete 10 sessions with clients ( Clients could be the student's family or friends who are ready to volunteer and they distribute the clients in between the students and each of them get to do the sessions with one of the volunteers)
I have completed three sessions so far and believe me when I am saying that it's intense.

Even though I know that I am just volunteering and it's not an actual therapy session, it's still hard. I had tears in my eyes in all my sessions and my therapist ( who is a student obviously) told me this on my second session that I am really restless and really really hard on myself.

I was a bit surprised you know?
I am really hard on myself at times, I knew it but the restlessness in me? I didn't know that.
Now I have homework for it . ' Don't do anything for 10 minutes ' that's it.

But I am telling you Mimi
It's really hard.
Even though somehow I managed to get that 10 minutes for myself but my mind was whirring the entire 10 minutes.
It was so hard for me to not to think about the things I have to do...and I even made a list for it during that 10 minutes.

It just showed that how restless I am in general....sigh!!!

I have seven more sessions to go and I hope that I get to find out and understand a lot more about myself.

Have you been to therapy sessions?? Probably you have.... it's a completely private question...I know.
Since this is a letter and you will never see this, making me a little bit curious and a bit impolite...I am sorry...and I genuinely feel that therapy should be a part of our lives. Mental health is as important as our physical health.

I hope you are happy and healthy, both physically and mentally.
Stay well jiminaa

With love
Army