Letters to Jimin

#Letter 47

Hi there.....

Happy Festa month...

I was planning to write one happy long letter , before yesterday happened.
I was so happy about Jin coming back and the fan meet...Festa song etc.
But yesterday did happen.

I never ever want to revisit this day ever again ....you know.

I was obviously worried and nervous yesterday and still I am.
My friend is in Cardiac ICU. It turned out that she has a busted aorta pouch and a ruptured valve.
Yes, it's really complicated and they shifted her to a cardiac specialist hospital and she's in good care. She needs an immediate heart surgery, which will happen probably today evening and lifelong medication and monitoring.

We are talking and texting. She had some difficulty with talking, so we are texting mostly and I have no clue what to tell her.
I am fumbling and struggling to console her.
I hate this..that she has go through all this.
They said it's a congenital disease and shocked that she had no symptoms or whatsoever till now.

I don't know.
Why things are always bad?
A few years ago, when things were looking up for her, she told me that she's worried about it.... because everything was going well then and she was wondering something really bad would happen in the future and take her happiness away.
I brushed it off saying it's nothing like that.

Why this is happening now...
I am so angry about it ...and sad.
I am worried about her....
So so worried.
I don't know how to tell her that everything is going to be okay... because I am not sure either...
It's all so sudden...
I don't know.

Her mom will be there with her in a day or two.
I wish I could be there too.

Aah...I am just rambling on....
I wish there's a switch to change everything...and say all this were a bad dream...and move on.
This is just terrible news back to back.

I hope you never feel this way Mimi.
I hope that all your precious people are healthy and protected.

With love
Army.                          3 June 2024

Ps: I know there are silent readers here.
It would have been great if you could make your presence visible by commenting or something.. because it makes me curious about it.

Anyway....keep my friend in your prayers ..
She really needs it now.