Belle (updated)

announcement

•BELLE

It has been just over 3 months since I had Amora and I am now a 20-year-old woman!

woop woop

I thought that when I turned 20 I would feel mature because I am no longer a teenager but it has been a week and I still feel like I'm 17

my body has pretty much gone back to how it was before I had Amora which was a shock, to say the least

but no complaints here

my boobs are bigger from breastfeeding and my hips are rounder though so some changes along with a little weight gain which the doctor said was good because I am no longer underweight and finally healthy

we moved Amora from our room to her nursery almost 2 months ago and she obviously didn't care

I however kept getting nightmares that someone had taken her so I was in and out of our room and hers during the night for the first few weeks just like I did with Carlo

the night shift guards were definitely confused for a while on why I'd go into my daughter's room 4 or 5 times a night for a few seconds and then go back to bed but I think they figured it out because one night when I got up as usual they were all looking at me with a mixture of pity and understanding

we were going to move back to the penthouse when Amora was 3 months old but now that she is we've decided to wait another month or two

well, Killian decided and I didn't argue because there's a chef here who is also my best friend so why would I want to leave?

plus when I'm here I can save Enzo from Killian which I know he appreciates

I finally got proper training on how to use a gun when the nightmares went on for too long and Kill thought it would help to know I could properly defend myself and the kids if anything happened and he wasn't there, which did help because the nightmares stopped a week later

the training didn't take long and Oliver, who was training me, said I had natural talent

Whether it was 'natural talent' or the fact that I had already killed 3 people with a gun that helped I'm not sure but again...

no complaints

He also taught me how to use knives which was a lot more fun than I thought

I'm not exactly waiting for the day that the skill will be used though...

He also wanted to teach me how to fight but with a newborn, I was way too tired to do anything physical

well, not anything..

*wink wink*

I'm brought back from my thoughts by Killian snuggling deeper into me

he is currently on top of me with his head literally in my boobs with both arms around my waist and his body between my legs

how I'm breathing right now I have no clue

I move my arms around his neck and run my fingers through his hair, massaging his scalp softy as I do

he hums tiredly and kisses my boob as he holds me tighter