A Man From The Moon

Chapter 14 - Prayer Feather

JEFF POV

Today is already a week , I don't get any messages from Ben or call like before. I also can't call him, all call sent to inbox . I don't know what is wrong with him. That day was the last time I could hear his voice and see him.

I can't go to his house because my pack schedule, I miss his cooking now I only can eat what my manager buys for me. I don't have any other number to contact, no one.

Why he done this to me. What is my fault. Why I feels like abandoned by him. He said he like me then why he done this. Or he sick? Car accident? No ... No that's not but where is he now.

"Shia meng . I miss you, Ben"

Yeah I miss him. How long he will be missing in action. I want to see him.

A call from my manager.

"Jeff where are you?"
"I'm in my studio,Phi"
"Are you forget? You have show today at 2 pm? Now already 1 pm"
"I'm sorry Phi, I'm sorry. I'm so focused on my song that I miss the time"

I lied. I'm to out of my mind thinking about Ben. I run to my room changing my cloth to blank white t shirt and with soft color cardigan , straight cut pant. Wear my sneakers and be ready to go.

I call for Grab bike because they more fast than I drive by myself. After 10 minutes , I arrive at the place where I have show today. I run to the Make up room.

"Phi I'm so sorry, Phi Rasika I'm so sorry. My mistake and I forget to look at the clock."
"That's okay Jeff , I know you never late before. Okay let me touch up your face , let me do light make up on you. I think outfit already good for today show, because they do it outdoor , heavy outfit will make you uncomfortable because of weather."
"Jeff you have no time for sound check. How?"
"That's okay phi , that my fault. All songs were songs that I'm already sing it many time , I think I'm okay "
"You only have 5 minutes to be on stage"
"Jeff will be ready soon. Fix his hair and he is already done"

It's feel so mess. I'm never late for my work and show before , I feel bad with my manager and Phi Rasika. Thank God today's show is going smoothly.

"Saturdayss thank you for today and before I'm say goodbye, last song from me. Almost over you"

~These lonely days keep passing by
Try to live without your smile
Even if it took a while
I'm almost over you
The rose you gave me's dead and dry
Losing one petal at a time
Just like the memories in my mind~

Your face on my mind now, Ben. It's only a week but I feel it already a long time.
...

I'm in my studio , I don't know how long I can't have proper sleep. It's already 3 weeks I feel so lonely, empty. After show , shower and back to studio. That's me for weeks.

I wrote lyrics and today I make  music notes for it. It's what I feel now. Lonely and missing someone. I play it with my guitar.

~Look at the fallen leaves.
Floating along with the wind that blows
Like love that can't be completely talked about.
Tell him every day and time
Every minute and every hour that passes by
But it's still not all in my heart.
Telling him would probably not be enough.
Will you remember every word?
It takes a lot of time.
What he heard was only a small part in his heart.
For the rest of my life, it probably won't end.
Will you stay and listen to it?
If forever
I don't know if we can wait.
From the calculation of the day and time
Can't say how long it will take.
It might be a hundred thousand miles beyond our wedding.
Maybe our hair color will change.
Maybe it's past the day when we sleep forever.
But love hasn't been completely talked about yet.
Telling him would probably not be enough.
Will you remember every word?
It takes a lot of time.