Mattheo Riddle x Y/N oneshots

7. Beautiful things (Lovers)

This one will be inspired by the song "Beautiful things" by Benson Boone. I've been obsessing with that song for awhile lately.

Some more angst, yes, I'm sorry

Warning: mentioning of suicide

~Mattheo's POV~

For a while there, it was rough
But lately, I've been doin' better
Than the last four cold Decembers, I recall

I hated myself for my dad. I know it's stupid, but I did. I even tried to kill myself. I just couldn't live with the idea of turning out the same as my dad. Something inside me stopped me. I guess I already had a feeling I'd meet a girl who'd make me believe I'm not him. 

And I see my family every month
I found a girl my parents love
She'll come and stay the night
And I think I might have it all

I often hung out with the boys. They're more my family than my dad will ever be. And then I met Y/N. She was awesome─ no, let me rephrase, she was perfect. I fucking loved her.

And I thank God every day
For the girl he sent my way
But I know the things he gives me
He can take away

I guess I must've done something right, something to earn her. But I knew myself, I knew I could do something to lose her, to scare her away. Deep down, I was still a lot like him.

And I hold you every night
That's a feeling I wanna get used to
But there's no man as terrified

As the man who stands to lose you

She was very strong, but I would hurt her, and I knew that. I'd never forgive myself if she left because of me.

Oh, I hope I don't lose you
Mmm

Sometimes I wanted to push her away, for her own safety, but I couldn't. She was the only thing keeping me alive.

Please, stay
I want you, I need you, oh God
Don't take
These beautiful things that I've got

I needed her. She'd help me back up when I was feeling down. She could always bring a smile to my face.

Please, stay
I want you, I need you, oh God
Don't take
These beautiful things that I've got
Oh-oh-oh-oh, ooh

Please, don't take

She'd succeed where everyone else failed, she'd succeed in giving me a reason to live.

I found my mind, I'm feelin' sane
It's been a while, but I'm finding my faith
If everything's good and it's great
Why do I sit and wait 'til it's gone?
Oh, I'll tell ya, I know I've got enough

She made me feel normal, she made me feel like my life was great. Yet I'd always worry she'd leave me after a week, two weeks, because my troubles were to much for her.

I've got peace and I've got love
But I'm up at night thinkin'
I just might lose it all

Even after months I still worried I'd lose her. I'd lose the only light in my life and get into darkness again.

Please, stay

I want you, I need you, oh God
Don't take
These beautiful things that I've got
Oh-oh-oh-oh, ooh

But then my father came. He killed her. And to add drama he let Nagini do it. She bled to death in my arms. I lost Y/N, I lost my light, I lost my reason to live.

Please stay
I want you, I need you, oh God
I need
These beautiful things that I've got

I'm sorry, Y/N, I just can't live without you.

I almost cried when I wrote this, so I know some of you will too, sorry for that.

As you could read above, I love this song, and (coincidence or not) the song started playing while I was writing.

We're at 1,000 reads, by the way! I'm very happy! Thank you all very much!