Hidden feelings [BTS 8th member]

9.

We didn't talk of the kiss, rather, we avoided the topic.

We were both scared of admitting something that we knew would never be accepted.

We didn't want to try to light a small fire that eventually, would turn into a conflagration.

There weren't words said between us that specified these things, but I think by just the looks that were shared after the kiss said enough.

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"Hello." I bow as I walk into the studio, skipping Jungkook's eyes. I make my way to the usual corner I place my bag in. Shortly after I start to warm up, stretching my arms and legs in different ways.

I tear my eyes away from the mirror before me when I hear the door open again, Bang-pd walks in.

"Hello," he says, carrying a stack of papers. "As you all know we're going to start to film some new Run Bts episodes." He clears his throat, "Some of the fans are upset that we stopped it, but it was for a good reason because Haeseong joined the group!" He laughs, but no one else does.

"In a few days we're filming a new episode, I have the schedule here." he holds up the stack up papers, "So please take one." Bang-pd drops the papers on the ground and leaves the studio as soon as he can.

"Ready for it?" Jungkook says from behind me, making me jump. "Yeah I guess so," I say, still thinking about the kiss.

It's like I want him to forget about it, but also at the same time, I don't want him to.

I feel guilty for admitting that.

Throwing me out of my thoughts, Yoongi steps up, "After we practice we're heading to the recording studio. We're going to record some lyrics for the new album." He yells, which surprises me a bit, I've never heard him get this loud before.

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Practice felt fast, like it always does. That's why I always take extra time to practice on my own.

I play with my hands a bit, partly because I'm extremely nervous and the other part because I'm alone in a room with Hoseok and Jungkook.

I'm not sure why he called us in here first but it must be his way of producing songs.

"Haeseong you're up first." Hoseok says, gesturing a small wave for me to go. I nod and step into the recording room, putting on the headphones that are laid on the small table before me.

Hoseok hits a button "There's a paper on the counter with your lines on it." He says through the microphone, I pick up the paper, analyzing the information on it.

I don't have much lines, which is what I expected. But I still secretly hoped they would give me more.

Hoseok turns the track on, and I sing my parts as directed. When I finish the song 'Young Forever' and 'Burning Up' he tells me I'm finished.

"But there's more on this paper.." I argue, but he cuts me off, "That's for Jungkook, we only want you in the important songs." I nod, forcing myself to take that as a compliment.

When it's Jungkook's turn I'm immediately blown away, I knew he was good, everyone knows that. But hearing his voice in person really enhances it.