Dipendenza

Chapter 8

Leonardo

"Look at this." Samantha said shifting her phone to my face. "How would I look?"

"Like you always do." I shrugged.

We were laying in my bed having a 'best friend sleepover'. It's what she called it and I didn't reject her because I was too tired to argue. I'd much rather be having sex but I won't complain because when she's sleeping I'm going to call one of the women I have a standing with.

I haven't had sex in a few days, instead I've been spending my time with William or Ronald. Both have been enjoyable but I am looking for a good release. Sex has not been the best lately, not that it ever was. It's always lacking something and now it's gotten boring. At first it was bad but at least I got a release. Now it's just something to pass time.

"You're no help." She huffed eating some more popcorn. "I'm going to ask Ariel." She smiled. I raised an eyebrow at her. "What?"

"Do you like her?" I asked bluntly. She started laughing but sobered up quickly.

"Maybe." She said seriously. "I mean she's so sweet and gorgeous but I'm not the person for her." She shook her head. "She's too far out of my league."

"You're gorgeous just like her." I said confused.

"Not in that way Leonardo. I'm confident in my looks it's my character. I've killed men twice my size and that's not the worst thing I've done. I'm scared that I don't deserve someone because what I've done." She said sadly.

"I understand." I nodded. "That is behind you though. No need to keep crying about the past."

"Take your own advise." She mumbled.

"What does that mean?" I asked.

"You like Ronnie." She said like it was obvious.

"I do not." I glared.

"Leonardo." She titled her head.

"Samantha." I responded.

"You spend almost everyday with him." She said.

"He cooks for me." I said confused on where she was getting her thoughts from.

"He makes you smile and laugh." She said matter of fact.

"He's funny, I'm not a robot, I know how to smile and laugh." I glared.

"I can't tell." She grinned. "Come on Leo, just admit that you have some kind of connection with him."

Ronald is different. He's an insistent flirt with a bright smile and is amazing at cooking. He's funny and able to get me to feel comfortable around him. He's caring in a way that makes you feel seen and heard. I would be remiss if I didn't say that he's handsome because he is. He's very attractive with his deep skin and playful smirk. All these things does not mean I am romantically attracted to him. He is nothing more than a friend.

"Yes I do." I nodded. "A friend connection."

"Lord." She groaned. "Whatever, just finish up so we can watch a movie."

"I don't watch television Samantha." I grumbled.

"I don't watch television Samantha." She mocked me. "You need some ass huh? You're only ever this grumpy when you need to have sex."

"Yes actually I do." I stood up. "Come with me or don't but I'm going to fuck something." I said stroking into my closet. I need release.

*~*~*

I laid on my back staring up at the ceiling. It was a nice apartment I was in. Well furnished and clean and big. I turned my head to the woman who was breathing heavy laying in her stomach. Her body was covered in painful looking red marks. She seemed more than satisfied though. I got my release and that's all I can ask for.