Dipendenza

Chapter 20

Ronnie

I sat at my desk typing on my computer. I'm trying to keep my files together for Leo. I prefer paper so I'm about to quit this tech shit. I sighed and reached back grabbing my notebooks and a pencil. I started writing down the shit I needed to.

I sighed and kept writing. It felt like I was working for hours and it might've actually have been. I have to get this work correct though considering I'm the Donna. Before I did my job and well. I don't half ass work ever. Now though, now I'm genuinely stressed about making a good first impression on the guys. After watching Leo kill five people in a row without blinking my brain finally clicked that he is a killer.

He's not a normal hood nigga like I am. Yes I've killed but those encounters have been street shit. 'He killed my man's brother so we gotta kill his' type shit. I don't know why but my brain can comprehend that more than just shooting anyone who speaks. It doesn't mean I'm scared of him or my feelings have changed. It makes me see him in a new light though.

If his whole life has been filled with death and love came to him and still ended in death, I can't help but feel pity for him. He's been raised to take over a company that runs on murder and the destruction of communities. He's been taught how to take a life since childhood. I can only imagine when he first killed. Mary was a light in a long dark hallway and that light went off.

Fear is not something I have. I learned from a young age fear of death won't get you anywhere in the hood. I had more fear of watching my mom go hungry than I did of dying. Now while I don't feel fearful towards Leo but I'm fearful for him. I don't ever want to leave his side. Not because I don't want to die but because I don't want him to. He's so fragile, he squeezes me at night. He whispers her name in his sleep with tears going down his face. He thinks I can't see him when he cries or that I don't notice when he constantly touches me to see if I'm still there.

I can't leave him because than he'd die. I don't know who Leo was when he was with Mary. I don't want anyone to learn the new him without me. I'm not even sure there will be one.

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"I'm not talking to you." Leonardo glared at me and started shoving clothes in a suitcase.

"But little daddy I said sorry." I pouted and hugged his waist. He cut his hazel eyes to me.

"You're a liar." He glared.

"Well you did the background check. How didn't you remember?" I asked.

"When is my birthday?" He asked.

"It's March 29th." I said confused.

"Why do you know that?"

"You told me." I said shrugging.

"You didn't tell me your birthday Ronald that's why I didn't remember." He shouted.

"You did a back ground check though." I pouted. He shook his head and finished packing.

"Get ready. Bring five outfits." He sighed.

I forgot to tell Leo my birthday was this week. I mean it's not a big deal and I never celebrate. It is my first birthday with him but still. Chris and Ariel came over and had cake with me. I got to see my nephew too but other than that I don't care.

"Where are we going?" I asked.

"I have a beach house in Florida." He sighed. "I do have a small business meeting but besides that it will just be the two of us." He said.

"So you were leaving this week anyway?" I asked.

"No actually. Before my boyfriend conveniently forgot his birthday I was planning a zoom meeting." He said. "Go get ready. I have a few calls to make then I'll be all yours."