Dipendenza

Chapter 11

Ronald

My body was unusually warm. I felt my hips being held tightly and hair on my chest. I felt small breaths falling on my pecs. I opened my eyes and saw Leo's head resting on my chest. Last night he bailed me out of jail and we talked and he said he wanted me. He said he wanted all of me.

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Last night

I rested my hot head on the cool window glass. I felt like my dad was taking me home after I got in trouble. In some ways that's what's really happening.

"Are you going to tell me what happened?" He asked stiffly. I turned to see him focused on the road. He didn't actually walk into the jail, he had a bodyguard bail me out and he's driving me home. He must have a past with the cops.

"It was self defense." I grumbled. It's the truth kind of.

"I need more than that Ronald." He glared.

"Leo not right no-"

"No you don't get to say that. I told you how I felt and you still went and was locked up." He slammed on the brakes. We were in the middle of an empty road.

"I told you I wouldn't die."

"Being in jail is the same thing." He frowned.

"I'm not though." I snapped.

"Because of me." He growled.

"I-" I stopped, sighing. My hand that was shot was bloody and aching. It makes sense for what I did tonight. "I went to a house party tonight. The nigga who drove the car that day was there. I picked a fight with him. By the time the cops showed up his head was bashed in." I shrugged.

"Is he dead?" He whispered.

"I realized that I don't want death for them. I want pain and suffering. So if he's not dead, I know at the very least he'll have permanent damage and if not I'll do it again." I glared.

He went silent and stared at the window. He was dressed in sweatpants and a white tee. This the first time I've seen him look like a normal nigga. I like it a little bit.

"That can never happen again." He grumbled.

"Leonardo I-" I started but his lips on mine stopped me. My eyes were wide as hell as I felt him kiss me.

"You are mine and I don't let what's mine get hurt." He whispered. I'm sure I looked stupid with my mouth gaping wide.

"Wait Leo what does that, what does that mean?" I asked confused. I've never been in a relationship before.

"You belong to me. I want you, I want all of you. I know right now my head can't wrap around the fact that I like you as much as I do. I also know that right now my body can't function without you. I know when I got your call my stomach dropped and I felt my world crash. I don't care how long it takes I'll get myself together for you but I can't go on without you." He said looking me in my eyes.

"Leo I've never- I can't be all that you need."

"I can't be all that you need." He responded. "Do you mind?"

"N-no. I want you too but what about me? I can't give you what Mary did I'm not her and I never will be." My eyes searched his face for any sign that accepting this is a bad idea. I can't find one.

"I know, I don't want that. I want you and I'm okay with that. I can't lose you." He said almost begging. I've never seen Leonardo so vulnerable, so raw. It scared me.

"I want you. I want this." I nodded.

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