The Scientific Jerk

Chapter Twenty - Seven

I'm released from the hospital two days after what happened. I have a huge fabric cast band aid thing wrapped around my head tightly.

I hadn't slept any of the two days I was in the hospital. I was just horrified from what happened.

It felt like a nightmare. None of this felt real. I didn't want it to be real.

I should have been the one to get hit by the car. It should just ran over me. I deserved it. I feel like I was living for nothing now.

Dad takes me home and I cry myself to sleep.

When I wake up, I go to the large mirror in my room and look at myself in it.

My face is soaked from crying. I have a large band aid wrapped in my head. I give myself a closer look. I feel disgusted. By my own self.

For a week, I don't hear anything about Captain. But a couple of people from Science Club do visit me.

I go back the hospital to get my band aid removed. Right at the exit door I see Christina walking in.

I look at Dad who says I can have a minute with her.

"How is he?" I say as I run to her.

"Do you want to come?" She asked.

We walked down some hallway and sit on a bench next to the room Captain is in.

"The nurse will be out soon." She says. Her voice is low but deep. She's wrapped in a blanket around her.

After a couple of minutes in silence, Christina stares at the floor. " you're lucky Allison," she says.

"What?" I ask.

"You're lucky that my brother was there to save you." She says. Then she starts to cry. "He takes the pain for you, I know about the party."

"I did it for you. I went to the party to find-"

She interrupts me, "I didn't ask you for help. I'm old enough to take care of it on my own and I hardly even know you."

The nurse walks out and looks at us.

"You can go in Allison, I'm going to sit here a little longer," she says.

I walked to the door. From a little window on the door, I could see Captain. He's covered with wires, casts, and tubes.

He looked as if he hasn't woken up since he got hit by the car. His eyes were shut tightly.

I hover my hand around the doorknob.

I can't do it. I can't go in there. I can't do it! I can't see him like this and he doesn't want me around anymore.

"I can't do it," I whisper. And another set of tears come rolling by.

Christina doesn't say anything, she's still staring at the floor, deep thinking I guess.

I cover my face to hide my tears and run off.

Once I get home, I rush into my room and start throwing everything. I wipe off all the things that were on my tables. A couple of glass shatter but I don't care.

I drop all the pictures hanging on my wall and rip the posters off. Then with my crying face, I lean against the wall and sink into the floor.

I could swear by now, I was going insane.

I spot the electric water mirror. The one Captain gave me.

It still had a protective glass around it so I wouldn't get shocked.

I needed to wake myself up. I pry off the glass and turn on the water.

I stare at the dangerous water.

I was suppose to be hit by that car. And I didn't.

And without a second thought, I slide my hand though the water.