the heartbreaker

beat number 1

#SAMANTHA'S POINT OF VIEW

I was staring at the road in complete silence till my dad decided to break it saying "Sam, I promise it won't be that bad. Your grandma is such a great and funny woman. You'll like her "I tried my best not to roll my eyes at him but ended up mentally rolling them." dad, do not start this please. I think we have already fought enough about the same thing "I said and heard him sighing. I tried my best to ignore it but could not and groaned. My life sucks , I do not want to stay with my grandma in a farm house while my dad is in a NYC for work ! This is so unfair. He could've let me rent an apartment and live alone if he hates to live with me that much . I just hate being treated like a child ! ' no, you are still a child and you can't stay in a house all by yourself '. 'You can't live with me because I'll be out most of the day and I can't leave you alone at the house ' , i'm so sick of these words . Ever since my mom died few months ago, dad has always been weird . I used to go out and live my life but now things got different ! I do not get it , why can't i live with him ? part of me doesn't believe his reasons and the other part doesn't give a shit about them . He sent me to live with my grandmother whom I haven't seen since i was 10 or something . When i was 10 years old mom got cancer and she remained sick for 2 years so she couldn't visit my grandma often . Cancer was cured and mom became better , but then her and dad devorced , and i lived with my das for 5 years , my mom lived with my grandma then , at the age of 17 , mom and dad got back together but i wasn't close to mom then because i thought she had chosen to leave me these past years . Me and mom started getting along well when i was 19 , not only got along well , but we actually became best friends . Even though the doctors said that my mom is fine , yet cancer striked her again but this time , she died after few months . I remember seeing my grandma in my mother's funeral but i didn't talk with her , i didn't actually talk with anyone then . "We are here" dad said and I did not even notice that the car stopped till he spoke. I got out of the car and my bags fall to the ground taking my jaw with them. "What is that ?" I whispered in shock then turned to my smiley dad. "Dad! What the hell is this place? I'm not going to live in that dirty corral " I screamed in disgust while dad rolled his eyes . " c'mon Sammy , i know You will love it here! Your mom did . there's a stable and we both know that you love horses the most plus , how can a farm house be a farm house without having a coral in it ? " . I did not want to hear any more words from my dad so I walked directly to the house and passed the security fence . What's the importance of a fence that is 2 feet long ? I took few steps towards the house till my legs went deeply into something wet. I slowly looked down to see it was mud, or at least I thought so. "Well, at least the pig welcomed you" my dad tried to joke which mad the situation even worse . I turned to him and already felt heat in my whole body . I screamed  putting my leg in a small bowl of water . " oh c'mon Sammy , this belongs to the cows " . " fuck the cows and every little animal here ! one second and I stepped in pigs' dirt . what is next ? clean it ? " I yelled at my dad who was so busy laughing .

" who is the crazy girl who is screaming outside my beautiful house ? " an old voice said and I didn't need to ask to know who she is . my grandma ! " do you even clean this place ? " I yelled at her once I turned . my dad stopped laughing and was about to yell at me but she raised her hand to silence him . she turned to me again with a huge smile on her face " welcome you too my dear . you are so beautiful " she said touching my cheeks and I mouthed - whatever- which caused her to roll her eyes at me . well , at least I know now who I got this habit from . she went to my dad and welcomed him saying how much she missed him and asking him how work is then he turned to me and gave me the - do not be rude - look . I huffed rolling my eyes and put a huge fake smile on my face . " hello my dear , beautiful , kind , sweet and old grandma " I said sarcastically then hugged her while she sent me a glare that I think dad didn't notice . " okay , can we stop this agony and show me my room already ? " I said sighing . " you are not in some kind of a hotel where people are your servants ! Samantha behave ! It's not like i have another choice . I want you to live with me too but then i'll have to quite my job in order to take care of you . Soon after we will become homeless , do you know what does homeless mean ?" my dad exploded . " I know what does homeless mean , without a home . then we can just book a hotel room or something ! " I replied at him as he clinched his jaw sighing . " my dear Sammy , being homeless means no money , no fancy dinner every night , no car , no I phone , no designers' clothes . you got me ? no Prada no Chanel no Gucci or whatever else you wear " . Shit ! I shouldn't have ruined the sandal earlier in the big's shit ! " if you are that worried about me , then you could've let me live with my mom when you two were devorced , then maybe i wouldn've known my family members and it wouldn't have been that awkward to meet them . Maybe you shouldn't have told me that she was the one leaving me , because when i finally realized that no one will love me like she did , it was already too late ! She was gone by then " i said and he kept silence for few seconds before changing the subject and saying : " look , everything will be okay but please  " he spoke but I did not look at him and turned me head the other way crossing my arms on my chest . " fine then . No goodbye? "He tried but I ignored him while getting my bags from the floor then headed to the house. "Why do you have to bring up your mom in every fight ? you have to just forget about the past then everything will be the same as it always was and maybe even better " dad said raising his voice enough for me to hear and I turned to him saying " nothing will be the same , mom died and she will never be back " . I opened the door to expose a clean and a kinda nice place. At least it's not how I expected. I left my bags by the door and went to search for the bathroom . The kitchen was small yet clean and tidy . I went directly to the next floor. The master bedroom which belonged to my grandma was very nice too. There was another bedroom that was a small and nearly empty one. It had just a bed, a closet and a hanged mirror.

I got out of that room and entered the last one. It was pink which surprised me and the walls were floral. Pink is my favorite color . mom loved pink too .The bed was small with lovely pink sheets. I hope to get this room for the following weeks , or maybe months . god only knows how long i will be imprisoned here ! I got down again searching for the bathroom but stopped when I found my grandma standing with her hands crossed to her chest and glaring at me . if looks could kill , she would be standing in my funeral already . she didn't say a word so I decided to take the first step . " I was just looking for the bathroom " I nervously said rubbing my arm . " well , I don't think that your dear , beautiful , kind , sweet and old grandma asked you about what you were looking for ! " she said and my jaw dropped to the floor . how rude and sassy ! " okay , at least tell me where I'm going to stay ? " I asked rolling my eyes . she smirked at me then answered climbing the stairs " you could've taken the pink room if you were nice to your granny but now , I don't think so . you'll be sleeping in the basement for today . and let's see how you will behave tomorrow " . I got after her and crossed my arms on my chest just like she did before . " and why would you think I will agree to that ? I will sleep wherever I want ! " she turned to me with a challenging look then flashed me a key before putting it in her pocket . that bi.. beautiful woman ! " this is my house , my rules . I'm the one who says where to sleep and if you said one more word , you are sleeping in the corral " she coldly said and I left her and got out of the house . who would think that this sweet lady is a bitch from the inside . I walked to the back of the house where I found a wooden door that leads to the basement's stairs . I got down and I looked at the room in disgust . She has to be kidding me ! And I thought the room I saw earlier was empty ! This is so stupid ! I'm sleeping under the ground and in a room that has only a bed ! the only source of light here is the sun that will set soon . I climbed up the stairs again and stood in the middle of the corral . On my left are the pigs , On my right are the cows and right in front of me are the ducks . It wasn't so long till I heard a load groan coming from my mouth . 'My life is ruined' I said making it clear that all of the surrounding farms heard me . Then I glanced at my clothes which were not all ruined . That means not my whole life is ruined . I was just about to smile when a water drop fall in my cheek . No ! It will rain ! But we are still in autumn ! it's September god ! I ran to the basement once again and I took of my sandals so I will move faster and keep my dress safe
. I was just few meters away from the basement's door when karma remembered me again . I tripped and fall on the ground , on the mud , SHIT.. "c'mon stubborn , let's get your pretty ass cleaned " someone said . And who else would it be other than my lovely , sweet , kind and old grandma !