the heartbreaker

beat number 21

Luckily , the lake was not deep . He burst out in laughter and pulled me out after few seconds . I started choking water and he did not stop laughing . " what the hell have you done ? " I screamed in his face but he gave no reaction . I splashed water in his face then he stopped laughing and turned to me with a smile on his face . It was the first time to see him smiling , he looks good though . However , i'm mad . " what is so funny ? It was rude " . " no , it wasn't rude ! I found it so funny " he simply replied and my blood boiled even more . " are you kidding me ? threw someone in the water is funny ? " I yelled at him and he rolled his eyes . " hey , It's not that bad ! If you are mad because your clothes are wet then you can dry them later . It's nothing ! " he said with a shrug like it's the most simple thing in the life . " that's why they wrote on it -dry wash- " . " oh god ! Should i jump in the lake to make you forgive me ?" . " maybe "  I said giving him a challenging look and he mouthed -why not- . He took off his jacket and out it on my arms then jumped in his t-shirt and jeans . I got closer and his head popped from the water . Some water drops splashed on me but I did not bother because i'm already wet . He waved his hands in his wet hair and smiled at me saying " see , it's amazing " . " yes , it is " I whispered . he was speaking about the water while I was speaking about how he looked . " okay , come out before you get sick , I need a ride home " I sarcastically said and he chuckled . " let's stay for a while , I like the water " he said and I shrugged saying " okay but i'm not getting in the water again " . I picked his jacket from the ground and put it on my arms then sat on the top of the car as we were sitting earlier but this time I rested my elbows on my knees . " you know what ? I really like it here but i can't admit it to my dad so he will not say -i told you so- " I said resting my chin on my palms . He smirked at me saying " it's okay . At least you admitted it to me " . " why do not you smile often ? You usually smirk " i questioned him and he smirked ignoring my question then saying " it's time to go home "
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" so , we're here " I said once we were outside my grandma's house . " yeah " he said more like a whisper . " I had fun today , except for the lake part " I sarcastically said and he chuckled saying " i still think it was fun " . We both stopped walking and he turned to me then held my hand " you still go out with those girls ?" I asked and he frowned " you must stop seeing them ! We are supposed to be together " I said and he raised his eyebrow saying " I remember telling you to never talk about it again ? And I also remember you saying you won't " . this is the second mistake " you did not ! You did not tell me anything " I said immediately acting cool . Why did I even bring it up in the first place ? . He turned my hand and looked at it , searching for the ring , I think . " I have a question to ask " he said seriously raising his eyebrow . I nodded and he took it as a sign to continue " what do you feel towards me ?" . I frowned and nervously rubbed my arm " I think I like you ? " I said more like a question which caused him to clench his jaw and tight his grip of my hand . " what do I have to do to make you love me ?" He said pulling me towards him by my hand and I yanked his hand away . " and why do I matter ? You can make any other girl love you so why wasting your time with me ?" I said crossing my arms over my chest . He was about to reply but I asked him another question " you said you dislike bitches because it's hard to make them love you . I was in my underwear when you met me and I was mean to everyone . I was a bitch . Why did you go out with me ?" I asked him and he kept clenching his jaw for a while till he suddenly relaxed and a stupid smirk played on his lips . " as you said , the first time I met you , you were in your underwear and the first time I saw you , you were in only a towel . So , that's it . I like you for your body " he said and it did not take me a second to slap him . And I made sure that my five fingers left marks . I turned to enter the house but he stopped me from my arm and said " forget all the answers I ... " . He did not continue because I turned and slapped him again . I do not regret it , I wanted to do it so bad . I opened the back door and stepped inside then heard him saying " goodnight baby " . A son of a bitch ! Son of a bloody bitch ! Son of a fuckin' bloody bitch ! Son of ... " hey ! Where were you and why do you look like shit ?" Mary hardly managed to say between her laughter . " . " please do not speak about it " I told her heading to my room . I entered my room's bathroom and filled the tub with hot water . A hot shower will help me relaxing . I stripped and walked in the shower . Once the hot water touched my skin , I relaxed . My mind travelled to what happened today . Sam is cute , hot , stupid , nice , player , selfish , stubborn , rude , bad , handsome , mad and liar . I do not know what love is because I have never loved anyone in my life except for my family and it's another kind of love . How dare he say such a thing ? I know that he said he likes me for my body only to piss me off though . Whatever he did , i give him excuses and my feelings for him never change ! when i'm with him I feel something weird -of course I do not mean the feeling of my blood boiling- I feel a little warm ! I have that feeling one has when he drinks hot chocolate in one of the cold winter's nights . you take a sip of your hot chocolate and feel it going down your throat and warming you from inside . But him , he is a great actor , a very great one . Once , i feel like i'm so special and then i'm nothing . I do not even know Why he does that ? I got deeper into the water and pushed all these thoughts away .
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Two days passed and I did not see Sam . Today I do not have to work , I collected the eggs and cleaned the dishes . Now i'm waiting for Lucas to come . I told him everything about Sam and asked him to bring me something and I really hope he finds it . After what happened with Sam , I became afraid that he might catch me because I have made a lot of mistakes recently . " Samantha ?" I heard Lucas calling from the corral and I immediately answered saying " in the stable !" . He entered the stable with a huge grin on his face . " you got it ?" I asked him whispering and he nodded . " show me " I said and he took it from his pocket and gave it to me . " i'm the best ! " he said with a proud smile . " yes you are " I said not taking my eyes off of the pendant .