the heartbreaker

beat number 19

Loves me ? he said it rolling his eyes , just like he is used to say things like that to any girl he meets ? Should i tell him the same ? I will not deny that i have feelings for him too but is not it too fast ? Maybe i Should say no ? Or will i get caught if I did ? All I know is that i'm supposed to believe him . I was thinking for so long and I did not notice till Sam called me . " what's the matter ?" He said and I turned to him but did not find my voice to reply . " didn't you believe me ?" He asked frowning and I suddenly had my voice back " I do " I immediately said then took a breath and continued " but I do not love you back " I rudely remarked . This was the first time for me to be that brave ! I never thought I would be so rude to someone . My dad would be ashamed if he knew . If he only knew ! " why ?" Asked by him . What a stupid question ! Why he did not force me to love him as he always force people to do things ? " erm .. I -ugh ... I just do not " I nervously said playing with my fingers and he took a deep breath . His facial expressions turned to angry ones and I started to feel afraid again . " I do not think you can make all the girls you want love you !" I confidently stated and he raised his eyebrow saying " you know what ? I can and I will . I'll make you love me . I'll prove it to you that i can make all the girls love me love none of them , after that i'll tell you - I said so - " . " then , prove it big guy !" I told him standing from the bed . " I will " I heard him saying but did not even glance at him . I walked towards the door and was about to open it when he stopped me . I turned around and he pushed me towards the door . He put his hand on the door next to my face and leaned closer which made his arm muscles more visible . -Don't stare at him- I thought to myself and stared at his eyes instead of his body . " it's a shame that I can do anything with you but not make you love me ! So i'll have to make you forget everything that happened today and go out with me tomorrow , clear ?" He said more like whisper and curiosity was eating me alive . Oh god ! Why can not he force me to love him ? " as crystal " I said and he mouthed 'great' . He walked towards the window and was about to go out when he turned to me one last time saying " you know what ? From all the other girls , i like you the most ! You have got my attention since i laid eyes on you . Brava , You are doing great girl !" . less than a minute after , he was out of my room . I threw my body on the bed and drifted to a sea of thoughts ! What did he mean when with that ? Does he mean he loves me ?
I did not sleep , I stayed up all night . I called Lucas and told him I will not go to work this morning . I should tell him all about what happened last night but I can not on the phone . Maybe some other time .
I went down stairs where I found my grandma . It's 7 AM so she must have just woke up . " hey granny ! Did you see Mary ? " I asked and she replied saying " she is finishing her work in the corral so early today so she could go to the market later " . I was about to go out when she called me again . " Sam " I stopped and turned to her . " there's a charity party after 3 weeks . Everyone will be there and I expect you to come " . " well , 3 weeks is a long time . I think I will go if nothing stopped in my way ! " I replied with a smile then turned to go out . I was almost out when she called me again . " Sam ! i'm so glad you are here " she said and I smiled at her . " and i'm glad to be here too " with that I got out . I walked to the corral where Mary is supposed to be . She was feeding the hens . " morning Mary " I said and she turned to me with her lovely smile . " morning ! slept well ?" If she only knew ! " not at all " I said with a nervous smile . " what about coming with me to the market and tell me why in our way ?" I nodded then went to dress up . After dressing up and Before getting out of the room I notice the calendar on the wall . I have been here for a month and half already ! I feel like I have just came yesterday . The only difference is that I hated it at first when I came here but now , I do not know . I mean I like Mary and Lucas , I love my grandma , I like Sam although he is weird but he has something so special about him ! How could he make me like him after all he had done ? Maybe it's all because he is attractive ! I pushed the thought of him at the back of my head and went to see if Mary is ready .
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" so you just went out few times but there's nothing between the two of you ?" Mary asked and I nodded . I told her that me and -my crush- went in few dates but it did not turn out to be great . I did not tell her where we went or any thing about Sam and thanks god she did not ask . " oh ! Look who is it " I heard someone said and Mary stopped rolling her eyes . We both turned to be met by two girls , the first was brunette and the other wasblack headed . They both dressed good , not better than me and Mary since she borrowed a blouse from me but well , they dressed good . " what do you want?" Mary said letting out a deep breath and I just stood there awkwardly .They ignored her and turned to me . I like having attention , but not that type of it . " so , the blonde relative , am I right ?" The black headed one asked me then Mary mouthed -let's go- . " excuse me ?" I said raisingmy eyebrow . " Sam , I think is your name ?" The other chick asked and I sighed saying " what do you really want ?" . " well ,since you are the only blonde chick here we just wanna make it clear to not attend any other party ! And the most important thing is " the first girl said while the other one continued what she was speaking about just like they read each other's minds . " don't ever get close to the mayor's son , we are trying to get his attention here" . Well , at least Sam did not go out with them . After all , he seemed to dislike bitches . I hearda soft chuckle and the both looked at Mary direction . " what is so funny, frogface ?" One of the girls asked in disgust . Frogface ? Really ? Mary smirked and took a step closer to her then said " don't try , he dislikes bitches " . The girl clinched her jaw and her black headed friend replied saying " oh ! That's why he doesn't go out with you !" If she only knew ! " well , I heard that you go out with some guy . Please tell me it's the stupid farm boy because you two look great together " the brunette said and Mary was about to slap her but I stopped her hand . "Stop Mary ! Your nail polish is too expensive to be ruined . God ! look at hercheeks .. fake , just like her eyelashes , eyebrows , skin and lips . Are you sure you were not made in china ? " I sarcastically told the brunette then turned to the black headed saying " by the way darling ! I like how your neck is five shades darker than your face " . we both smirked getting out of the market . Once we stepped out , we both burst out laughing . " omg ! You are hilarious " Mary said between her laughter. " fun killer ha !" I told her laughing and she replied saying " you learn fast " . " who are they any ways ?" . Mary rolled her eyes and said " the brunette is emma and the black headed is lily " . I rememberher telling me about lily and emma in the welcoming party night !
The rest of the day went fast and nothing really happened . I did not see Lucas today and he does not know about what happened with Sam . I was now setting in my room waiting for Sam to come . I'm dressed in a short red dress and black high heels . I do not know where we're going but I hope we are not walking there .