The Captain and her Roomie

Chapter 21 - Gone

*TW - mentions of suicide, grief*
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You got onto the coach and headed back to the hotel, the next day you were traveling to Brighton which was around a 5 hour drive
"Le"
"Yeah what's up?"
"I think I've decided where I'm gonna go after the euros"
"Really!?"
She sounded surprised but excited at the same time
"Mhm"
"Where are you going then?"
"Erm"
"That didn't sound good, you're not coming to arsenal are you? I mean I don't know why I expected you to come and I did say I'll support you anywhere-"
"No Leah-"
"No, no it's fine I don't want to hold you back, you could move to Australia and I'd support you-"
You pressed your lips against hers making her stop rambling
"Of course I'm coming arsenal stop being silly"
Leahs face softened
"Wait really?"
"Yes"
She picked you up and held you tightly
"Will people not suspect things? I know you want to keep it private"
"All I care about is us, I know we've only been official for a few days but we can both admit we've liked each other from day one, not even this camp but the one back in March, you make me feel like me again"
Leah looked at you with so much love in her eyes
"I love you"
"I love you more"
You replied
"That's a little bit impossible"
"Oh is it really?"
At this point you were tickling Leahs sides when you heard your phone go off
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Steph - Y/n call me when you get a minute
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You rang Steph and she picked up instantly
"You okay Steph?"
"Y/n I'm so sorry"
"What do you mean?"
Your heart started racing
"Gabby passed around 30 minutes ago"
Your heart dropped, tears welled in your eyes and the world closed in on you
"No she can't leave me, please tell me this isn't real"
"I'm so sorry kiddo"
The world went black around you, how could she leave, you needed her, she couldn't really be gone could she?
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You woke up finding yourself in the rehab room where you got sore muscles tapes and stuff, Leah was next to you
"Hey pretty girl how you feeling?"
She spoke softly stroking the side of your face smiling at you
"I feel like shit what happened?"
"You fainted while on the phone to Steph, what were you talking about?"
Suddenly everything hit you, Gabby was dead, your best friend since you was 13 had left you alone like your family had 2 years prior, tears began streaming from your eyes.
"Hey, hey I'm here it's all gonna be okay"
Leah said pulling you onto her lap
"Gabby- she's gone"
You managed to get out before you broke into quiet sobs
"Oh baby I'm so sorry"
You cried silently in Leahs arms
"What time is it?"
You asked once you managed to calm down
"Midnight, let me tell them your okay then we can go to bed okay?"
"Mhm"
Leah left the room and you got up, feeling quite dizzy because you were running in energy drinks and no food because you were to stressed the morning before. Leah came back in
"Cmon then let's go upstairs"
She put her arm around your waist and you walked upstairs and went onto the balcony while Leah was in the bathroom, thoughts flooded your head,
"What if I just jumped?"
You thought, you genuinely didn't want to live without Gabby, she just got you like nobody else did
"Y/n?"
You heard Leah from inside your room
"I'm out here Le"
You felt her arms wrap around you and she placed her chin on your shoulder
"We'll get through this, together"
She said quietly kissing your collarbone
"You know you don't have to stay with me because you feel bad"
You said causing Leah to stand up straight and turn you around
"You're kidding right? I'm not gonna leave because you're struggling I'll be here through it all okay?"
She said this sternly but softly at the same time, not having her usual angry face on
"Let's get you to bed you look exhausted"
Leah picked you up and placed you in bed, crawling being you and holding you in her arms, playing with your hair until you fell asleep, silent tears streaming down your face.
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Ngl making myself emotional with this one, ik there's ALOT going on but it defo makes sense in my head bc ik the plot, hope your enjoying <3