Back To Square One - Dan and Phil // SLOW UPDATES

Chapter 20 - Too Good To Be True.

I pushed him off right that second. I didn't say a word to him. I just got my bag and left. Oh, and I slapped him in the face, just thought you might want to know that. That kiss brought me so much memories. So much unwanted memories.

Walking down the streets made it harder to push back the memories I had locked up in my head. The only thing missing is Jamie running after me. Jamie was my ex boyfriend, he was the reason I'm well-known in tumblr.

He broke up with me when it was my birthday which means that we only dated for 4 months.. what did you expect? I was 16 turning 17. 

I got so mad at him that I don't let him explain to me why he broke up with him.

And so on the 19th of March 2014 I got a text from his mum.

He broke up with me because of the fact that he was too depressed to be in a relationship. I got even more furious because he promised that we can go through this together but he didn't keep that promise.

Then when I saw him walking with his friends he avoided me. He avoided me every time I tried to meet him or contacted him.

He left me broken and turns out he lied about everything. About how he was depressed, how he liked me. Of course we haven't said we loved each other because well, I haven't had the guts to and he was faking it.

I am a victim of a dare. Yes, those cliché things in movies do happen. Well, to me.

And so as I walked down the streets taking the king way home to clear my mind I can't help but feel heartbroken once again because Jamie never did say sorry to me, he acted like the perfect boyfriend. Bringing flowers to my front door, giving hug attacks, and little cute things. 

But I soon found out that guys like that were too good to be true. If you do find a guy that truly treats you like that then keep ahold of him for me. 

Sight seeing the suburbs weren't really on my to-do list today so I decided to go back home, thinking it would calm me down.

It didn't.

As I walked up the stairs, passing my parents with no words spoken to them and into my room. My room looked so messy. My bed wasn't made and my clothes were thrown on the floor in front of my closet. I reminded me of my old room. 

My old room was always messy but I liked it that way because it gave me comfort although sometimes I had to clean it because I couldn't stand sitting in a pile of filth.

My room is where I can lock myself in and let out all of my emotions, and so I did. This was probably the hundredth time I broke down in my room but I didn't care. The occasional knock that came from the other side of the door probably belonged to either mum or dad, asking if I was okay or even offering me food.

I always said I was just having a moment and for the food offer.. well I always said no but I would sneak downstairs in the middle of the night and grab some left-overs from the fridge.

Then I heard a ringing noise coming from my laptop that I kept on. I checked to look what it was and it was a Skype call. It was Phil and being the dumb shit I am I decide to press the 'answer' button due to habit.

Clap clap, well done me. I'm just hoping to God that he doesn't notice my probably red and puffy eyes due to bad quality.

"Hey Amity!" His voice boomed through the speakers causing me to lower the volume of my laptop down. "Hey Philip." I say with much more less enthusiasm as him. "So we're in a hotel in Glasgow right now and we have internet!" He grinned and did a little triumph face.

"I assume you and Dan are sharing a room?" I said although my tone made it turn more into a question. "We are, he's just in the shower or something because he's singing in the bathroom." Phil shrugged.

"Oh boy." Was all I said. There was along awkward pause between us but thankfully Phil started a new topic to talk about. But unfortunately it was about today. "So, what did you do today?" Asks Phil.

I cleared my throat, "Erm, nothing much." And then my brain decides to re-live that memory. I swear it's like my mind hates itself. If that makes sense.

Resisting the urge to cry I took deep breathes. As seamlessly as I could. Sadly he noticed it, "Hey, are you okay?" He tilts his head to the right like he always does.

"I-I'm good." I lied. "Good isn't good enough, what is it Am?" He pushes on. "It's just a guy I hung out with today, no worries." I shrugged.

His expression changed from the kind and soft looking face he usually puts on was replaced by a rough and angry expression. "Did he do something to you?" He asked in a very low voice.

"He-he kissed me." I said ever so softly which he of course just had to hear. "He what?!" He exclaimed. "It's okay Phil, really-" He cut me off, "No. You don't sound okay."

I just had a loss for words there. Just as I wanted to say something the screen froze and a message was written on the screen.

'Call ended due to bad connection.' Was what flashed on the screen.

I put my head in my hands and just sat there. Remembering when my life was actually simple.

I remembered when I had actually had people who liked me on Tumblr. They liked me because of the way I helped them through trouble. How I built a community based on feelings. A community that is now gone. Destroyed and forgotten like trash.

It never did occur to me how lucky I was when I had a simple life of just staying on the internet doing homeschool, occasionally going out with friends I thought were actually real friends.

I had a boyfriend, a small family, a hand full of friends, and a community.

But as I said,

A perfect life is always too good to be true.

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AND DONE. WHOOP WHOOP.

so I didn't finish it on time since it's currently 12:06 in the night.. or morning, whichever floats your boat but since a lot of my readers are from the US and Europe and not from my country (except like for my irl friends) i'm good.

But nonetheless this chapter is a result of really bad night writing and a fusion of poofylittlecat 's idea and mine and kyrarcaciawelham 's idea so here you go!

I promise I'll make a better one tomorrow or something because I am not over-joyed with this chapter but I am liking it so I hope you like it aswell.

Love you guys to bits and stay being the perfect and awesome person you are!

I mean that.

Love, OmfWhuut.