"When you say it's okay to fake a smile, you are truly saying it's okay to fake happiness and hide the pain."
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Dan sat down on the sofa across from me and crossed his legs. "I saw what was happening on Twitter.. Don't cry because of that." He gave me a sympathetic look.
"I-I'm not crying ove-er that." My words were stumbling on each other and it just sounded like I was in a fishbowl it was so unclear.
"Then why are you?" He moved a little closer to me. "E-everythings to-o much." Without any intentions, I started crying again.
"Oh Amity, PICK YOURSELF UP!" I shout in my head.
Dan's eyes widened in shock and he came right beside me, engulfing me in his arms in a comforting hug as I cry on his shoulder.
"Like, I didn't mean to c-cause attention to m-myself." I choked out. "I know you didn't.. It's not your fault." Dan tried to calm me down but it didn't really work.
"Bu-but I know why p-people could think it was my fa-fault and I think it is too.." I trailed off, my tears started to dry as I wiped my cheeks.
"Hey hey hey, don't say that." He looked at me with his eyes screaming 'don't you dare say that.'
My teary eyes looked up to his, "But it is Dan. I mean, imagine if didn't post the picture I would not be washing your shirt with my tears."
"People make mistakes, Amity. You did what you thought was right at the time and from what I've heard, you stood up for yourself. You asked for the credit you deserved, because you wrote the song didn't you?"
"Yeah.." My raspy voice said.
"See, that means you did what you thought was right.. You jist made a few mistakes along the way of fighting for what's right." He continued.
"You know, for a sarcastic asshole, you do have great advice, Howell." I tease. He chuckled, "Thanks, Winnie The Pooh helped. Oh! And browsing tumblr and stumbling upon really deep quotes helps too."
I giggled but once my phone buzzed I stopped to look at the screen.
From: Easter B(ea)unny
To: Me
Uhm I saw what happened and I wanna talk to you but I guess you haven't seen the trending topics lately?
I escaped out of Dan's arms to go on to Twitter whilst he looked over my shoulder.
Trending worldwide:
#YouLiedTumblrQueen
#Replace1DSongsWithNiallsHat
I didn't cry anymore because it wasn't worth it. But I did have tears brimming my eyes so I tackled Dan in a hug and shut my eyes closed, dropping my phone and hoping the sad thoughts went away.
It took him time to look at the screen of my phone and when he does he wrapped his arms around me.
And at the exact moment someone walked into the room but I didn't know who it was until Dan talked to the said person.
"She needs you, Phil." Dan whispered. I released Dan from my hug and turned around to face my brother.
"Phil." I breathed out.
"Ami-" he was cur off by me hugging him and saying a bunch of 'I'm sorry's at him.
"What are you sorry for?" Phil asked. "I-I'm sorry because I've been an absolute prick over these past days."
"No no no, you are an amazing person and you made mistakes because you need to know if it was a mistake to know if it was mistake." Phil says.
"Did.. Did you just quote 'How I Met Your Mother'?" Dan asked.
"Yes, yes I did." Phil answered proudly.
"Oh my God you dorks." I breathed out once I released Phil from my hug. "You... Wanna watch 'Friends'?" Phil suggests. "YES!" I exclaimed.
Although it would be reminding me of my old friends I loved the TV show series. Call me basic, I don't care.
I grabbed my laptop and started playing a few episodes of 'Friends'.
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A few episodes passed and Dan's phone buzzed. Once he looked at it, he had a slight frown on his face.
Right then, my mum came in through the door. "Phil, Dan, there's someone at the door. I think he said he was-" Mum was cut off by Phil.
"Whoah-kay mum. We'll be right there." Both Dan and Phil then said their goodbyes and each gave me a heart-warming smile.
Once they were gone, mum stayed for a little while.
"You know hun, I heard what was going on upstairs.." She trailed off, making me sigh.
"You shouldn't be upset over that, it's a small little thing that you think is huge. Although it's not." She continued, my head still looking down.
"It's okay really. You just need to toughen up." Mum chuckled. "I can't." I mumble.
"What was that?"
"I said I can't!" I shout. "You don't know anything mum. You listened through the walls. You don't have my life. My twisted, twisted life. You have no idea how it feels to be in my shoes." I say, trying my best to keep my voice calm.
"You're right. I don't. But I do know that you are receiving a lot of rude and mean comments and advice you to just shrug it off and smile." My mum said in a commanding tone.
"You don't think I tried that? You don't think I tried to 'shrug it off'?" My voice was at the verge of shouting.
"I don't think you've tried smiling through the pain though. You haven't tried, honey. You haven't tried." She sighed.
"But isn't that lying?" I ask her. "It is but the longer you smile, the faster it'll come true." Mum crossed her arms.
I know what she's saying is pretty much bullshit but I'll try it.
"Fine then. I'll try it. I'll smile and lie about my pain. Hiding it all inside and ignoring all the feelings bundled up inside of me. I'll ignore it until tears automatically cover my cheeks."
Mum looked taken aback. "I didn't mean it like that. I meant you had to just smile until it comes true."
I sighed, and nod.
What if the real smile never comes true?
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This update was sorta requested by batmangurlstuff so beth sorry for leaving you lmao.
Don't kill me pls.
But I hope you guys enjoyed this chapter and as you can see I'm trying my best to be on my usual schedule!
So I hope you have a great day you lovely people that deserve it.
Bye guys!
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