Back To Square One - Dan and Phil // SLOW UPDATES

Chapter 9 - And.. Action!

d e d i c a t e d t o y o u.

"S-six months?" I stutter out, letting it all sink in. Dan looked at me with worried eyes but I flashed him a smile. A fake one but he didn't seem to notice it was.

"It's for your fans, right? As a phandom member I am very excited for you t-to go and make a short film with Pj and I'm very excited for your book tour although I do not have enough money to travel with you guys." I tell him, surprisingly my voice didn't crack or something.

"Yeah, " Dan said nervously, "I'm sorry for leaving so fast but hey, you are going to move in with your friend, right? You wouldn't even notice that we're gone and plus you've got Skype, and Phil and I would be posting vlogs which we rarely do."

I smiled a real smile it wasn't as big as the fake one but it was a real one.

Dan sighed once his phone buzzed. "It's a reminder, I need to record a video." Dan explained.

"Then go and record!" I slightly push him. "But are you sure you're okay?" Dan asked and I forced out a giggle to make it seem real. "I'm okay Dan, it's opportunity and I'm excited to see the project with Pj." I partially lied.

I lied about the fact I was okay but I was actually excited about the series thing with Pj.

Dan shot me a sorry smile and walked outside the living room and I heard a door slam which I assume was Dan's door to his room slamming.

I looked at the screen of my laptop and just stared at it. Looking at the various notifications popping up.

"Restart." I mumble.

"Restart..." I had a brainstorm and started typing really fast on my laptop.

Restarting my life seemed like a great idea. But this time, I'm not going to need the help of Phil. I can handle my own things.

I logged off my Twitter first and clicked 'sign up.' and used my backup email address to make a new account.

Nothing seemed wrong about my plan about restarting because I have my reasons:

1. I'm probably going to move in with my best friend and that means moving to Queensland

2. Moving to Queensland means moving to Australia, that means it's easy to start fresh and meet new people.

3. With all the things I need to watch out for being 'Tumblr Queen' it'll be nice to not care about typos or something silly like that

And finally,

4. No more extra attention. I just wanna blend in with the crowd more, just like the day I created my blog. No one who the bloody hell was 'UnderratedBlogs' or 'AmOnTwitter' or any of my other accounts.

I was about to click 'sign up' but then suddenly Phil came in, resulting in me slamming my laptop shut.

Phil raised an eyebrow but just decided to shrug it off. He pulled a chair and set it infront of me.

He sat down on it and we stayed silent for a bit. The silence was unbearable but Phil finally spoke as he realised that I wasn't gonna say anything to him anytime soon.

"I'm sorry." He blurts out. I scoff and crossed my arms. "I really mean it, I'm sorry for what I said before."

I rolled my eyes and decide to finally say something. "So you agree on me going with Bea to Queensland?" I ask.

He sighs, muttering a no.

I laughed. It wasn't a happy laugh it was more of a what-the-fuck laugh, if you get me.

"Look, I just- it's just-" Phil kept screwing up his words. "You don't trust me enough to move to Australia?" I finish his sentence for him.

"It's not just that Am, I'm scared, okay?" Phil looked me in the eyes, making me roll my eyes. "Scared of what?" I asked. "Scared of you moving away so soon when I just found you after like, what, 11 years?"

I sigh, "We could still Skype call, we could text each other although that would cost a lot of money.. But we could direct message each other on Twitter. We have Internet Phil. We can still talk to each other and you're not gonna lose me again."

Phil directed his attention to the floor all of the sudden, as if he didn't want his eyes to meet mine.

"Really though? You're going to move to Australia, and you're going to probably be there for like a few years, how am I not supposed to think I'm not gonna lose you?" Phil said, his eyes finally meeting mine.

I grew a little frustrated. "Well, you're going to make a short movie file series with Pj and you're going to be traveling everywhere for your book tour! If I just sit around in my room while you're traveling, it's the same fucking thing! You'll be traveling around, miles away from me." I blurt out all of the sudden. Well damn.

His eyes grew wide in shock, "How'd you know that? It was Dan wasn't it? That-" He calmed himself down. "You know what? It's alright. I wasn't going to spit it out soon.. And yes I am going to travel but it's only for a few months.. and it's just a few miles away and you being in Australia means thousand of miles away. And again, I know for a fact our mum wouldn't agree on two eighteen year-olds gong to Australia, alone." He stood up from his chair.

"I came here to apologize, not to agree with you on traveling to Australia. Good night Amity." He said with an annoyed tone but it still wasn't a bitter tone. He flashed me a weak smile and left the living room.

I groan and rubbed my face with my hands.

He's just being a little protective, that's all.

That's what I kept reminding myself of. He's just being a good brother.

I can take care of myself too. And besides, Bea is 20 years old, she's got experience.

He's not going to lose me. He isn't. I think I can manage not going missing.

I can do it.

But oh how I wish I listened to him.

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GUESS WHOOOO? Alright, I've been getting a lot of peeps requesting for an update so here you guys go! I mean, look who this chapter is dedicated to.

I want to have a mini thank you for all of you who reads this book. I love each and every one of you.. I think that sounded a little creepy.

Anyways, I hope this chapter didn't suck and I also hope that you have a wonderful day!

If you didn't have a wonderful day then whO IS THIS PERSON THAT MADE YOU SAD? TELL MEH.

wokey, I'm going now :P

Omfwhuut? expect an update tomorrow or the day after :)