𝑺𝒊𝒏𝒇𝒖𝒍 𝑶𝒃𝒔𝒆𝒔𝒔𝒊𝒐𝒏 ✔

Chapter 47

Liliana

Pian.

Numbness.

Betrayal.

I can feel all of the terms altogether right now. I can feel my heart is bleeding invisibly. I can feel someone is stabbing my heart continuously. This is too much to take.What’s with this feeling? I knew something bad was going to happen then why my heart isn’t able to take it anymore?

It’s so suffocating. I feel like I need more oxygen to engulf, to feel my lungs. I knew love hurts and yet I fell in love with a guy I hate the most as he provided so many reasons to fall for him but how could he do this? How?

It’s hurting.

No, it’s burning. It’s literally burning everywhere. My skin is burned, my heart is burned but alas!No one would be able to see how badly everything is ruining inside me. It’s indescribable. I can’t describe it in words how it’s feeling.

I place my palm over my chest where my heart belongs, which I gave Jungkook to take care of, but who knew he would play with it this way? A sob finally lets out from my mouth as I begin to rub my chest again and again. My body shakes violently and a horrible cry lets out from my chest which is also unhearable as I already lost  my voice, I can’t cry like other people. 

“Miss Elsher—” Felix speaks up deeply, his voice is shaking slightly and I feel like crying out with all of my lungs. “Pull yourself together.” He wraps his strong arms around me gently and I clutch his shirt tightly while sobbing loudly, unable to say something let alone pulling myself together.

Felix drags me somewhere and I don’t want to know where. I just want to cry my heart out. He makes me sit somewhere and he takes a seat beside me, as I’m not in a state of taking anything, I wrap my hands around him and hug him tightly while my chest is heaving up and down violently, my body shaking violently and my heart is hurting badly. Felix doesn’t protest me though, he lets me cry.

I cry.

I cry.

I cry until there’s no tear left in my eyes.

“MIss Elsher, are you alright?” Felix pats my head gently and I finally break the hug while still sobbing but not that intense like before. “I can't take this anymore.” I manage to utter while clutching my chest tightly. “You have to, Miss Elsher.” Felix says softly while patting my head gently, “Why?” A loud hiccup breaks free from my mouth as my shoulder shrugs violently.

“He probably has a reason.” He sighs and I stare at him in disbelief. He’s still defending Jungkook. “You're still taking his side.” I whisper, my throat is burning and it’s pretty hard for me to even breathe properly.

“Let’s confuse him, Miss Elsher.” He says after a few minutes and I stare at him in confusion while wiping my tears, I have never thought I would have to wipe my tears this way. “What do you mean?” I whisper as I try to calm my breath down. “Pretend that you’re okay and congratulate him for his engagement.” He says and I take a deep breath.

“Let me tell you something, Felix—”I pause and keep my palm on my left chest, then I continue talking, “No matter how strong you’re, how you always show the whole world that nothing scares you or breaks you, there’s something or someone whom can break you into pieces that you would never be able to be okay ever again.” I choke out a soft sob again, I’m crying. Again.

“This whole world will never be able to break you until it’s only one whom you love, in this case, I’m devastated, I have no willpower left in me to fight back or pretend that I’m okay. I’m broken.” I let out a shaky breath and look down to stare at my trembling fingers. My lips are trembling, my chin is wobbling and I’m a devastated mess.