Criminal Love - Alastor X Female Reader

Chapter 11 - Confession

You decided to take a solitary walk towards the woods when you suddenly noticed Alastor sitting there as well. You were surprised to see him after Paul practically asked him to leave your home.

You decided to join him as Alastor glanced at you with a slightly surprised expression.

"That was quick." He joked, attempting to conceal his simmering frustration.

"That's because it never happened." You sighed as Alastor gazed at you with a frown.

"Why? Do you not love him?" He then inquired, hurting his own feelings in the process.

You stayed silent, not offering a response as you respectfully lowered your gaze to the ground.

"Are you alright?" Alastor asked now growing concern. The brunette noticed your quiet demeanour after Paul left.

Paul had been expressing a desire for a more intimate relationship, but you did not feel even remotely attracted or aroused by him.

And with Alastor practically living with you, it strained the relationship.

You found yourself contemplating the reason behind this as your gaze met those honey coloured eyes.

It was as if the answer lay within those.

Alastor possessed an intimate understanding of you, while Paul did not.

Alastor was your first kiss, whereas Paul was your second.

Alastor provided love and support during the difficult time of your mother's passing, while Paul chose to leave you alone, believing it was for your own good.

You willingly entrusted Alastor with a key to your home while you hesitated to do the same for Paul.

When Alastor was present, you experienced profound and intense emotions within your heart, yearning for something greater and more fulfilling.

With Paul, it felt platonic.

And now it finally hit.

You wanted....

Alastor.

"God damnit, Elizabeth." You muttered under your breath as you hated that the horny bimbo was right.

Alastor was perplexed as he regarded you with a furrowed brow.

Were you prepared to openly confess your emotions to your best friend? What you share is extraordinary. He is exceptional. Would it be considered unusual?

But you needed to know.

"Al..." You started off with.

"There's something I need to tell you. And I just hope it doesn't affect what we have when I do."

You could tell Alastor went into deep thoughts for a moment, trying to figure it out himself.

"My little belle, have you been keeping a secret from me? After what I told you?" He gasped dramatically, placing his hand on his chest.

This caused you to playfully punch him in the arm as he chuckled.

You shook your head, smiling, understanding that his intentions were to help alleviate your nervousness.

Indeed, it was working.

"But in all seriousness, my dear, what occupies your thoughts?"

You took a moment to think of the words.

"I must admit that my feelings for Paul have not developed as I had anticipated. I find myself unable to reciprocate his affections, and I sense a barrier preventing me from connecting with him on an intimate level. The reason for my discomfort during intimate moments with Paul is that I can not bring myself to engage in such acts with someone I see solely as a friend. I lack even the slightest spark of affection or love for him."