Half a heart

Chapter 34

⚠️Tw: therapy, hospital, breakdown, crying, depression, anxiety, bad thoughts, lonely⚠️

Niall's pov:
I am driving Charlie to school today since I had to go into the studio this morning. Charlie was cleared by the hospital and his therapist that he could go back to school, he wasn't sure about going back after everything that happened.

Soon enough I pulled up outside the school gates and I looked over at Charlie in the passenger seat who was fast asleep. I saw Nick was waiting at the gate like he always does for Charlie at school.

I text him to tell him to come to my car, he walks over to the car and I unlock the door. He opens the door and smiles at me and then looks down at Charlie.

"Char" Nick whispers.

Charlie lets out a groan and then slowly opens his eyes and looks at nick. He looks at his surroundings and just frowns, I look at nick and he nods.

"I will see you at 2:30 to pick you up for your appointment okay" I informed him and kissed the top of his head.

Charlie nodded and got out of the car with help from nick. Nick shut the car door once he grabbed Charlie's bag.

I waved at them and drove away and towards the studio to do some recordings...

Nick's pov:
Charlie is back at school today, I am happy he is back. I haven't seen him much since he was in the hospital because when he got released from the hospital he didn't want to see anyone.

I was talking to the boys and they said Charlie wouldn't come out of his room for anything. They would leave his breakfast, lunch ,and dinner outside his door and he would take the food and when he was done he would leave the empty dishes on the tray with a little thank you note.

The boys would try and go up to his room and try to talk to him but he would just ask them to leave him alone. The boys were really worried about him and so was I, I texted Charlie asking him how he was doing and see if he wanted me to come over but all I got was my messages read and then no reply.

I wrapped my arm around Charlie's waist and held him tight as I guided him through the school corridor and down the hallway to the music room. Charlie likes the music room and I thought it would be a good place to bring to be alone and talk to him.

I walk in to the room and pull him in with me and shut the door behind us. I sat down on the floor and pulled Charlie down onto my lap, he kept looking down at his hands and not at me.

"Char bear" I whispered. He lifted his head up slightly and I cupped his face in my hands slowly bringing his face up so he is looking at me.

"What happened?" I asked him.

Tears began to pour down his cheeks as he cried, hugged him tighter as he cried in my arms. This perfect boy, my perfect precious boy is crying his eyes out.

"It's okay darling" I comfort him.

"I-I-I'm s-s-still s-s-s-struggling" he choked out.

"Oh baby" I rock him back and forth slowly in my arms.

"After getting out of the hospital I just lost it, I couldn't think straight my head was flooded with all these bad thoughts and I just didn't know what to do. I wanted comfort I wanted to tell someone but I just couldn't I didn't know how to and I was scared and anxious and just everything, I was a mess for 3 weeks and I could of been not as much of a mess if I just opened my damn door and walked downstairs and talked to the boys or even talked to you on the phone. I'm sorry" Charlie rambled.

I don't say anything and just hold him even tighter to me, Charlie cries a bit more completely soaking my blazer.

"Char" I whisper.

I look down at him and see he is asleep and his breathing has evened out and now I can little snores coming from him.

I sit there and hold him close to me in my arms. His head was resting on my chest and his body was curled up on my lap.

<Time skip>
I have been sitting here for about another hour and a half. Charlie fell asleep soon after is breakdown, I've been holding him so tight against me making sure he is safe. We have missed form and maths so far, I know the boys and my mum are going to get text messages stating that we haven't shown up for class today.

I couldn't care less right now about equations and algebra. My focus is on Charlie and Charlie only,it's only about 10:30am and Charlie isn't getting picked up for his appointment until 2:30pm so we still have hours to wait.

Charlie is beginning to toss and turn in my arms, I look down at him and play with his hair to calm him down. He slowly flutters his eyes open and looks around and then looks up at me.

"Hey baby" I smile.

"Hi" he mumbles.

He sits up a bit more in my lap and just hides his face in my chest. I run his back and kiss his forehead while he rests against me.

I know we should go to class and all but I'm not going if Charlie isn't ready to go. I hear little snores and look down at Charlie's adorable cute face, he fell asleep again after just waking up.

I don't blame him for it though because he did cry in my arms for an hour nearly making him really tired. My phone soon starts going off with calls and texts from my mum asking me if I am okay and why am not in class.

I tell her something happened with Charlie and that we are at school but sitting in the music room, she was glad to know I was okay and she wanted to make sure that Charlie was okay.

I call Mr Ajayi to tell him that Charlie is at school and so am I but we are not in class and are in the music room because Charlie wasn't feeling well and was too overwhelmed when he got to school this morning.

Once I finished dealing with all of that, my focus went back on my baby Charlie who is still asleep and is snoring a little louder now.

I took my blazer off and put it on top of Charlie and my arms tighten more around Charlie to make sure he was safe and he knew he was in my arms.

I am glad I get to still hold Charlie in my arms like this...