The girl who should've been left at airport security |memoir 1|complete

Sufi

This is the name that came from a dream. It came to me in a dream. I can't tell you the exact nature of the dream, as it might be controversial and some religions but I remember that I was given the name Sufi, because I am too go and find knowledge and respect And respect other people, and their knowledge that being said, I was able to use my birth last name, Mustafa, and use that name Sufi that being said, that was what the dream dictated me to do I don't usually do what my dreams tell me to do but it seems like a brilliant idea, and it caught on quite quickly that I wanted to be called that name Sufi Mustafa!
As I was going to go and change everything on face, that was one thing again the idea that I was changing everything on Facebook and saying that my name is now Sue Mustafa that was pretty interesting. Sufi Mustafa was a lot better name sometimes I don't mind my original name which I'm not gonna tell you what it is cause of scammers and creeps but There is a Sufi Mustafa is the one that I go by because it is basically the one that was given to me by whatever is running the universe!
So I stay with that for now it kinda was inspired by the dream, but also the fear of my mother, finding out who the hell I was ! that being said, I was not very interested in the mother part, but I was interested in the dream part as this was a very interesting dream where I was able to be acknowledged by one of my ancestors that being so very interesting, but I didn't know very much about this ancestor!
When I realize that was the name, I was going to go by not legally I wish I could legally change my name. Yes, it is or people who are terrible and horrible will not find out my true name that being said, it would be very easy to change the name except for the money part I was really angry that I could use the name legally! So far and anyone who is a creep can go and find me as E.M. which kind of scares me if you ask me oops I just mentioned my name but anyways, that is basically my name anyone who can see that online will find out that is who I am and docs me or stalk me or do something that's not exactly desirable these are desirable people. I have met many times not just the guy from Brook Alfo, but anyone who can be a pain in the tor in my opinion so I ended up growing by sou Safa. I wish I could change the name to Sufi Instead of E because for some odd reason, E. doesn't really suit me some people a nice name but it's a target on my back!
That being said, I was not happy about having my legal name and the idea that it was still there and that it said basically a ball to the back of my spine and that I anyone can throw darts at it that was not exactly my fun so of having both the spiritual name and the Legal name I wish I could change it all together so I don't have the bull's-eye on my back! because that's what my legal name is actually doing is acting like a bowl or most of the scammers most of the creeps that I have match have known my last name and legal given name that being said, I don't like that so I'd like to be able to purge myself of this, and purge myself of some of the past history that it has brought me is not interesting and at all to be given a white man's name when I'm not a white person or full white!
That being said, I just didn't like the idea of this name. It never really clicked to me to begin with you as a child I was oh I'd rather be called there so I'd rather be called that instead of this stupid name that I did not really like that being said this was my opportunity, but still with the ball on my back this Old legal name of mine that I have to go because people can doc me or people can do whatever they want to bug me if they find out my true identity!
All I know about the dream, and this name was that it was a mystic something similar to a shaman that gave me that name and it felt good to use that name instead of my legal name EM I'm just using my initials because for safety reasons I don't give out my legal name I don't even write under my legal name not even under a Sufi Mustafa I just go by Tarantino that being said that's basically my name online that's my one of my persona online because it's my pen name TM Tarantino that being said that basically who I am when I write or do anything creative I tried writing under my legal name but as I said, that kind ended up in the poop show as well!
I'd rather the Tarantino I might even go, Tara Margaret Tarantino one day because I'm kind of annoyed with the idea of having any kind of name that is going to be a bull's-eye so I decided that I'm going my Tesco, TM Tarantino and be done with it. It's a lot easier for me to align with my work and stuff.
I find that I use the name, Tara Margaret Tarantino as my pen name because it's basically this I want to be similar to Quentin Tarantino, but within the realm of books and e-books instead of movies I have been inspired by his movies many times, and it has helped me with my creative processes. Also helped me get the diagnosis of PTSD. That being said, I would rather go by his last name and Tara Margaret Tarantino instead of this fucking bullseye!
I think I might tell people in my therapy that that is the ultimate name for me!