My Happy Accident

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A long agonizing silence it was. Although I must admit it, I still genuinely care for her. There are times when I still sneak outside the hospital she's working at just to catch a glimpse of her.

Sometimes I ask Ate Ly about how she's doing, but most of the time, I just really wonder. I'm stuck between letting her go and living the rest of my life thinking about what we could have been if I didn't give up on her. It's just that I can't force her to love me, and I can't possibly let go of someone who has never been mine.

This place is so loud, but apparently it cannot silence the rage inside my head. It's the 29th of June. Ate Ly's birthday.

Here I am in the corner of the room. Sitting across from the girl I can only love from afar. I was just looking at her. I just literally want to hold her, kiss her, and talk about anything and everything. I miss hearing her voice and being near her. I miss her scent. Everything.

I thought I said alcohol would never touch my lips again. Here I am chugging down a bottle.

I was just drowning myself in free booze when someone grabbed the bottle.

"What the fuck!"

I exclaimed.

I was about to say another bad word, but I froze when I realized who that was. Ella.

Here she is, standing in front of me. Holding the bottle I've been chugging a while ago. Her furious eyes darted at me with a blank face. She just stood there, looking at me.

"Can I have my liquor back, please?"

I said, facing down.

"No," she firmly said.

She placed the bottle on the counter, grabbing my wrist as she took me upstairs.

I'm guessing she's already drunk again.

She opened one of the doors and slammed it shut behind us.

"Who told you to drown yourself in liquor?"

Wow, so she's mad now?

"Why do you care?"

I said as I maneuvered my way out of the room when she suddenly grabbed me by my wrist again.

"Oh no, you're not going anywhere."

She smirked.

"What the hell is your problem?"

I shouted when she suddenly pushed me to the wall and smashed her lips against mine.

"Ella, what are you doing?"

I said this in between our kisses. My knees were already weak from those kisses. Not to mention her right hand holding my waist and her left hand choking me.

I can feel her body so close to me, pinning me to the wall. My mind's been screaming so many questions, but my body just responded with all her moves.

Her lips went from my lips to my neck, leaving wet kisses. God, her tongue feels amazing. I tried to contain my moans, but I was just helpless for the moment.