My Happy Accident

31

I didn't notice the time, and I still haven't recovered from what I read in Ella's diary. I thought she was going to leave me for good, but to my surprise, I felt her footsteps on our stairs, and she approached our room.

I didn't manage to toss her diary away, causing me to be caught reading it.

"You're no longer the Margarett I know. Never have you ever given a damn on that notebook, let alone read it."

She said that, leaning on our door.

Fuck, her words are piercing my heart.

"You used to hate me for always invading your personal space, but look at you now. You'll never really know how the world turns, will you?"

She let out a sigh and sat at the edge of our bed.

Fuck, I want to hug her and kiss her. No matter how many questions I still have left to ask her, which I know she'll never answer, at the moment, I don't want to talk.

I just want to kiss every square inch of her body, hoping it will heal every bit of damage I've done and take away all the pain I've caused.

I kneeled in front of her and held her hand. I realized she's already crying now.

I pulled her neck closer to mine and gently kissed her. I tasted a subtle hint of alcohol mixed with her tears.

"Margarett, don't."

She said as she took my hand away to stop me. 

"Don't do this. This is a mistake."

She said that as she was pulling away from me.

She then stood up and turned her back to me.

"Don't you fucking dare call this a mistake because after everything I've done and everything I didn't, this is the most right thing I'll do."

I pulled her waist and took a slight grip on her neck to assert dominance.

"When I tell you to speak, you run away, but when I tell you to shut up, all you do is talk. You're making this so hard for the both of us, De Jesus. One day you push me away, the next, you fuck me like it's the last day of your life. You were nothing but simple then. Now you have become a paradox I cannot fathom. It's not your call to make this time."

I whispered in her ear while my hands were already doing their thing, roaming around her body as if trying to find something.

Judging by the look on her face, what I did just sent shivers down her spine. 

Her body was frozen, and she's all flushed now.

I pushed her to our bed, and I climbed on top of her, aggressively kissing her while my hands were unbuttoning her shirt.

I felt her respond to my kisses and started to try removing my clothes, too.

"Nuh-uh, you won't stand a chance. You don't get to touch me tonight, De Jesus."

I said that in a hoarse voice, darting my eyes, burning with desire, at her.