only in my mind|| minsung

Eighteen🌷

"I'm back!"

Jisung took off his shoes as he walked into their dorm. He noticed the dead silence straight away and sighed.

"Minho?" He called knowing damn well Minho had no classes or place to be on a random Monday night.

"Hyung?" He called again knocking on Minho's bedroom door. He opened it slightly and smiled seeing Minho sitting at his desk with headphones on.

He walked over and tapped his shoulder making the boy jolt. "Fucking hell!" He tossed the headphones off his head. Jisung caught them before they fell onto the floor "I'm back" he smiled.

He placed the headphones on the desk. "You good?" He asked sitting down on Minho's bed. Minho turned around in his chair "Mm" he hummed. "You? How was class?"

Jisung nodded "I'm okay. Class was fine, found out I'm working with someone called Lee Minho for my final project" He grinned.

Minho hummed "I'm working with some weirdo called Han Jisung" He sighed "I'd rather shoot myself, I heard he's obsessed with himself" He teased making Jisung throw a pillow at him.

"Yah!" He exclaimed. Minho chuckled "I'm messing" He smiled feeling a bit more relaxed. Minho's smiled dropped "I know why you're here..." he mumbled.

Jisung cleared his throat "Yeah, I live here too" He replied making Minho sigh. "Jisung" he mumbled.

Jisung frowned a little "Fine" he sighed knowing well they had to talk before it got worse.

"About... What happened" Minho mumbled starting off their talk. Jisung leaned back, his back resting against the wall.

Minho took a breath. He looked so uncomfortable it made Jisung react quickly.

"You regret it right?" he cut across. Minho looked up at him. "What?"

Jisung looked aside "You regret having sex with me cause I'm a guy.. Right?" He asked. Minho gulped.

"Or is it because I'm your best friend?" He asked. Jisung nodded his head a little "I get it. Half of me regrets getting so drunk to let that happen but the other half of me just doesn't care" He shrugged "It's never that deep-" he cleared his throat "I think I made a pun there-"

"Jisung"

Jisung looked over to Minho after chuckling to himself. Minho looked so frustrated. "I regret it... And I don't... " He mumbled "But it's fucking hard to say I do when I know we were both so pissed drunk to even think properly"

Jisung stayed quiet.

"That's why I wanted to forget about it and move on! There's no reason for me to regret it because I don't even remember what happened! But..." He took a breath "there's no reason to just... Forget it either..."

Jisung cleared his throat "I mean.. If we don't remember the entire thing.. Maybe we should forget it-"

"No!" Minho cut across. "Ji..." He looked down at the floor. "I'm so fucking confused" He held his head to his hands.

"Everything just seemed to happen so quickly... Like... I had a girlfriend... She cheated on me... We broke up... Then I went out... And suddenly I... I have sex with a guy?"

Jisung stayed quiet. Minho closed his eyes. "Like I know I've been questioning myself, but-"

Jisung's eyes widened "WHAT!?" he shouted causing Minho to jump out of fear. "Yah!" He exclaimed. Jisung looked at him shocked "You-You... You're questioning yourself!?"

Minho groaned "Stop fucking shouting!" he replied. "Yeah! I am, why the fuck would I have sex with you if I didn't feel like I could be attracted to men?" minho scoffed.

Jisung couldn't believe his ears. "You.. You never told me-"

"I didn't think it was that important! Some people like to make being queer an entire personality and some big thing!" He sighed. "I just rathered not saying anything"

Jisung let out an airy laugh. "So... You're really confused now huh?" he asked. Minho nodded "I don't know what to do... Like.. I don't even know if I even liked having sex with you, I can't remember it"

Jisung felt his heart break a little at the thought of Minho not even enjoying having sex - even though they were both drunk and what they did was probably illegal due to not being in the right mind to consent-

"I mean.. I'm gay, I can help you figure shit out" Jisung gave him a thumbs up. Minho furrowed his brows "How did you.. Figure it out?"

Jisung chuckled "I came out of the womb as a rainbow Min, I knew since I was small for reals" he moved to the edge of the bed and took Minho's hands "But I do know that it's hard to come to terms with your sexuality especially if you never knew it before" he smiled before patting Minho's head.

"So, for your sake, let's put what happened last night behind us, you can remember it or not but we don't need to make it become some weird situation that split up our friendship" He smiled. Minho took a breath.

"And try focusing on yourself and what you wanna experience hm? I'll be with you for it all!" Jisung patted Minho's cheek.

Minho rolled his eyes "See you're making me questioning myself into some big thing" He frowned. Jisung scoffed "Wow, sorry I'm just tryna be here for you" he stood up.

He went to leave but Minho suddenly called him back. "How" He paused.

Jisung waited for what he was going to ask.

"How do you... Know you like boys?" He asked.

Jisung felt a small smile appear on his face before he jumped back down onto Minho's bed.

"Now this. This is a topic I have expertise in"

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Hey hey heyyyy

Yall I went on a hike

Look at that Irish landscape for realssss

They made this hike thing all religious n shi so yk I had to write Jisung's name on a church from the 5th century😍😍

How are yall? Hope ur well xx

Have an amazing day or night!!! All the love, all the power 💓💓