only in my mind|| minsung

Sixty Three🌷

Minho rushed into the apartment to find it completely left in silence.

"Jisung??" He called out before searching the living area, the kitchenette and Jisung's bedroom. He even checked his own room to be sure.

Then he rushed to the bathroom, to see Jisung sitting on the floor, puffy red eyes, holding his knees to his chest as he buried most of his face down. He didn't even notice Minho open the door.

"Baby..." Minho went to his side. He took Jisung's hand slowly, which still made him flinch. This had been a bad panic attack.

"Baby?" Minho looked at his face for any signs of fear or resignation but was just met with a look of need. A silent plea to help him - that's what Jisung gave in that look. Minho rubbed soft circles on the back of his knuckles "Ji baby" he smiled lightly.

Jisung was still far in his own head. Minho tilted his head to the Side as he looked at Jisung "Hanji" he smiled more "Hey baby... Look at me" He cupped his cheek "Is this okay?"

Jisung slowly nodded, even if it was breif. Barely there. "... y-yeah..." he uttered. Minho smiled "Can you tell me three things you can see?" he asked.

Jisung's eyes darted around the room "You.... A-and... The... Sink.... The towels..." He breathed heavily. Minho nodded and sat down on the floor "mhm, deep breath for me" he took one for jisung to follow.

Jisung tried to follow the breath but it was barely even there. He felt even more panicked that he couldn't breath like Minho wanted.

Minho smiled "Good" He nodded "What are three things you can feel?" He asked. Jisung gulped "Y-Your hand... Uhm.. T-The... Floor under... Me... And.... Uhm... Uhm..." Seeing the panic flash across his eyes, Minho carefully squeezed his hand.

Jisung looked at him "Y-Your... Hand... Squeezed mine..." He mumbled his third thing he felt. Minho smiled "Another breath for me hm?" He asked again this time Jisung followed a little better.

Minho eased Jisung through his panic attack - or what was of his panic attack since he had clearly been worse before Minho found him.

Once Jisung was calmer again, slightly still on edge but he could feel himself in his body again, he sighed "I'm sorry..."

Minho frowned at him "For what?"

"For what I said... For... Saying those... Words.. I... I know you're still new to... Liking me.. And I've liked you longer... And I don't wanna force you to say those words back... I hate myself for saying those words... I just didn't think and-"

"Jisung" Minho cupped his face. Jisung looked at him, tears pricking at the corners of his eyes. Minho lightly squished his face making Jisung's lips for a soft 'o' shape.

"W-What was that for??" He asked feeling flustered as Minho kissed his forehead. "I love you too" Minho spoke.

Jisung felt his heart stop, revive, recap the words, die again and then soar above and beyond. "Y-You-" He gulped "Love... Love me?" He asked genuinely shocked for words.

Minho nodded "I've always loved you, as a friend, best friend... Why would i not love you as my boyfriend?" he chuckled lightly as he helped Jisung off the floor.

"I... I just.. Wow... Uhm... I..." He stuttered. Minho smiled at him "Come on, it can't be that shocking now can it?" He asked.

Jisung found himself giggle "I mean...i guess...it's something I should've... Expected eventually... I just didn't think you'd.. Say it now"

Minho laughed a little "Hearing you say those words to me... You have no idea what kind of emotions I felt Ji" He sat him down on his bed after walking him over there from the bathroom.