Frostbitten Snowdrops (WWBM)

December 22

warning - mention of suicide

*6 am*

Daisy's P.O.V.

I suddenly jolt because I had a nightmare. Beads of sweat are covering my forehead and I take a bottle of water.

"Marcus?", I call him as I see his bed is empty and made.

"Marcus?", I say again as I knock at bathroom door, but nothing.

I open the door and see he's not there. I take my phone and see it's 6 am.

What if something has happened?

I make my way out of the room and come across the nurse who helped me when I had a panic attack.

"Miss, have you seen Marcus? Is he alright?"

She bites her lip, avoiding the eye contact.

"What happened? Where is he?"

"Miss.. Mr. Erastus left."

"What do you mean left? Where?", I ask as a chuckle escapes my throat.

"He.. He left the hospital. On his own. Signed the papers and left."

I stand in the hall, completely numb and dumb and the nurse puts her hand on my shoulder.

"I advise you to sit down. He left this for you."

She gives me a piece of paper and I start reading.

I don't even know how many times I've read it. I can't move. I feel tears in my eyes and I let them flow.

Marcus left me. He didn't even talk to me. He wrote a note. A freaking note and left.

My phone rings and Amara's name appears.

I try to say something, but she beams.

"Girl! You won't believe what happened! I mean, we didn't really have time to talk to each other because of everything going on and I didn't want to bother you, but Yvonne was acting really strange and distant and I thought she was about to leave me. So, I confronted her and guess what? We're going to Cameroon! Her family wants to meet me and all of that! And she didn't even tell me! She arranged tickets and all and believe it or not, I'm on my way to the airport right now. I'm sorry if I woke you up, but I bet that you and Marcus aren't sleeping because Alisha took Jay and went to your flat to feed Dorian, so you two can dedicate time to each other. I really do talk a lot, don't I? "

I try to compose myself, wiping my tears away.

She's finally happy and I have no right to ruin her happiness.

"Mar! Oh my God! That's amazing! I'm so happy for you two and I hope you'll finally get that blessing! "

I try to sound as excited as I can, smiling like a fool (I am a fool) while tears are streaming down my face.

"Have I woken you up? You sound weird."

"Believe it or not, you did. Now get to that airport and don't worry about me. I have never been this happy and at peace with myself, I swear."

"How's Marcus?"

"Better. He's sleeping."

I swallow a lump in my throat as I hear his name.

"You know that Alisha is at yours, right?"

"Yeah, yeah, she told me.", I lie, wiping the tear away.

"What's with your voice?"

"Nothing, I swear, you know how I am when I wake up. Say hi to Yvonne and my fingers are crossed for both of you!", I try to sound as elated as I can, but if she doesn't hang up anytime soon, I'll crumble completely.