Candlelight | A Breath of the Wild / Tears of the Kingdom ZeLink Modern AU

Chapter 28 : I thought I lost you forever

Zelda's POV.

He didn't let go of my hand for a single second.

I was scared, such as he was too. The ambulance was driving the fastest it could while the doctor next to me was already calling the emergency ward to make them aware that I was coming.

I'm so sorry. It's the middle of the night, they should be tired and I will avoid them to rest.

Mipha told me how a 24 hour shift could be tiring for the senior doctors and the residents. So, I couldn't help but feel guilty.

Guilty, ashamed, and scared.

I was bringing another problem to Father and Link, who didn't need it at all. I already caused them so much trouble, I already worried them too much. And Link in particular.

I acted like an idiot in Athens.

I hid too many things from him. I hid that Lucas tried to kiss me. I hid that I should sleep in this hotel room with Lucas - and I wanted to spend the night with Paya, but, of course, she was with Tauro -, and, just because I was feeling guilty and dirty, I couldn't tell him anything. But, I knew it would've been simpler to just say 'I let you know that I will have to sleep in this room with him after the party'. Something my cowardice avoided me to do.

And, of course, everything had been a disaster when, instead of learning through my mouth the day before, instead of being aware of this situation - and probably nervous as hell the whole night -, he deduced it. Because I couldn't look him in the eyes and tell him that I drank too much, something he learnt through an instagram account. Because I couldn't look him in the eyes and tell him that I wasn't where I was supposed to be. Because I couldn't look him in the eyes and tell him that someone else shared my bed, even if nothing happened.

How I was stammering, how I was avoiding his eyes, how I was vague and how I seemed guilty for something that didn't happen led him to the worst conclusion ever.

To his eyes, I drank, I teased Lucas and I ended up in his bed, doing something I only did with my boyfriend and only him.

I could understand. I could understand why he got to this conclusion, and I understood everything that happened after. How he was mad at me, how he screamed, how he cried, how he nearly broke up with me. I would've done the same thing, to be honest.

But the moment when he compared me to his ex was probably the mortal blow. If I was sad, guilty and desperate, I could tell that it annoyed me as hell. Because I never liked to be in third place. Because I couldn't do the same thing. And when he said that, maybe I needed my day, not to only think about what happened, but to make sure Lucas wasn't a better hypothetical boyfriend than him, I lost my mind.

I cursed him. I shouted at him. And I ghosted him all day long.

I had a long talk with Lucas right after I hung up. He swore that nothing happened between us, and I believed him. I didn't have any black-out of the whole night, and I perfectly remembered that he let me get ready to go to bed before he joined me and slept like a log right after his head met the pillow. Me, however, didn't really fall asleep that fast. I was tired, but I was fearing for the morning to come, because I knew I had to reveal everything to my boyfriend who thought I was in my apartment , and I knew he would be, at least disappointed, at most out of mind.

And it had been worse than expected. Far worse than all my nightmares.

Lucas tried his best to comfort me, even if I was crying and cursing the hylian boy who just broke my heart, the hylian boy I just broke too. He said that I should rest, at first, eat and take a shower before we would go back to our other friends. But I couldn't do anything else other than crying, complaining about what I'd just done and cursing myself for what I'd done to him, for what I'd done to us.