BURN "28 Flames" Book One

Cure 18

Christina brought a package in and I was shocked when I saw it..I hadn't put in a change of address. So how did he know where I was.

"Just sit it down over there." I said pointing to the lounge chaise.

She did as told and walked out of my office. I got up and went to open the box.

It was a book full of his thoughts and lyrics. I put it back into the box and put it in the closet. I read the note.

"I'm sorry Abigail I didn't mean to miss your call. I tried to come see you that night. I ended up in a hotel with a woman high out of my mind to take this pain away. But please don't leave me Abigail I need to know that your with me....Please. Meet me at the park from the first date."

I balled the note up and threw it in the trash and went to an empty house. Christina was gone for the day and Andrew wouldn't be back from the Bahamas for another week. My day would be a boring one.

I ate a bowl of popcorn and turned on the t.v watching nothing in particular. His note nagged at me and I just needed to see him.

I made it there on time at the tree in the empty park. The light above flickered as if any moment it would just burn out. This time it wasn't cold bit a warm night.

Then out the corner of my eye I saw him walking toward me his hair in that awkward style. He looked good his skin was vibrant and his eyes were more open. It seemed like he was sober. I hope he didn't get high that night because I had ignored his many attempts to call me.

"You look great as always." He complimented me.

"Thanks you look different yourself." I said evenly.

"What happened that night Abigail? I came by that night and your stuff was gone there was blood everywhere." He said concerned.

"I lost it Abel. My mind was tired of the suffering so I lost it. I cried I screamed because every time I need you your not there. Your life is hectic and we don't fit on it." I reasoned.

" I thought you were saying you lost the baby. Thank God." He said releasing the breath I didn't know he was holding.

"That day I went to get an abortion. But I couldn't do it I heard the heartbeat then I saw your face. It was all too much my selfishness once again showed it's ugly head." I whispered.

"You mean to tell me you were going to kill my baby. What the hell were you thinking Abigail that killing our baby would solve all your problems? I would've given everything up for you without hesitation so that's bullshit Abigail." He yelled startling me.

"No I didn't but we don't need a kid Abel and you know it." I yelled back emotionally.

"Speak for yourself Abigail I don't need you making decisions about my life and what I need and don't need. Your right your too damn selfish for your own good. To think that you were different. I gotta go." He chuckled annoyingly.

"There you go running like you always do. I hate you Abel." I screamed.

He turned around and walked over to me so quick I was caught off guard by his now mean facial expression.

"  Yea well stand in line Abigail your not the first. What the hell do you want me to do? You already made up your mind to kill our baby. So the fuck do you want from me Abigail?" He said through clenched teeth

If I didn't know any better I would say he wanted to hit me.

"I don't want nothing you have to offer because it's not enough for me. And I didn't kill our baby but your to stupid to hear me." I yelled.

He put his hand on my mouth and mushed me.

"Don't you ever call me stupid ever." He yelled.

"You are stupid and don't you ever..."

Before I knew it he had slapped me across the mouth. I was stunned.

"I'm sorry Abigail." He apologized pulling me into him.

I was still shocked that he got that angry to hit me.

"I didn't kill the baby Abel. I couldn't do it I needed you with me I need you." I whined.

"I'm here Abigail I promise. I'm here."He held me tight.

I whipped my mouth and a little blood was on my hand.

He kissed me and I kissed him back. This thing between us was stronger than I could've ever imagined. Any person in my shoes would've left and never looked back. But I couldn't he had a hold on me. Maybe the baby had something to do with the hold.

We made it back to my place and talked we had intimacy no sex just holding each other. He seen the ultrasound pictures hanging up. If he wanted to leave it would be hard for him to do it now. I had his hand print on my face but looked over it. I had pushed him that far. I've never seen him get angry.

He told me about that night how he cried and sat in my bedroom for more than an hour. The first girl he ever loved was in his lap that night. It made me mad because I would never do that to him. He had made love to a woman he once loved. But she wasn't the woman he yearned for. He had to be high to even get aroused by her. But I still wasn't comfortable.

I told him how I broke the mirror and cut my arms. He kissed my scars and made me promise that I would never hurt myself again. I promised that I wouldn't intentionally hurt myself.  But he had to promise me to never use drugs out of anger. He promised that he would get some help.

That night I gave him a key and he gave me another ring on my finger this time. He said that was the reason he wanted to meet him at the park. To give me a promise ring. I just hoped they weren't empty promises.

I kissed his forehead and went to get his diary that he gave me. I sat and he read it to me. I  cried at times because his feelings of his past were justified. Then I laugh at his childish things. But I had a glimpse of what he had gone through and the life he had lived.

I held him in my lap that night as he laid on my tummy. It didn't take him long to fall asleep either. He had opened up to me and let me see the real Abel and where the pain came from. Minh had made him the way he us with women she was an orphan who he'd met growing up.

Ming would sneak into his room and seduce him. But she never loved him just strung him along. All the while he was searching for the mother he never had in all the wrong places. A story so familiar. He was introduced to drugs and alcohol because of her. Then she left him one day saying she didn't love him. Since then he's just had meaningless sex with women trying to hide behind his hate for her and his mother.

I kissed him the whole time he was asleep. I wanted to shield him from his pain. I wanted to kiss it all away and give him all the love he needed and then some. I wanted to be the rock when he was weak. He just needed me and nobody else. If he was my knight I was the armor to protect him from whatever tried to hurt him.

I was his CURE and he was mine.  The L.U.V was no longer a disease that made his vision bleed of his memories because it wasn't only him anymore, it was us. And no matter what I was going to be here like I've been.