BURN "28 Flames" Book One

Often 26

I felt Abel climb in the bed behind me last night. He cried himself to sleep and I held onto him. I didn't pry for information I just consoled him as best I could. I tore to pieces watching him break down. I had never seen him this way yeah sure a few tears but not balled up in my lap sobbing.

But I didn't have to ask what was wrong. He had a break through. The witch that was riding his back showed him what would happen if he continued on this path. She showed him his worst fears. I'm sure I plagued his mind as well because all he could say was I'm sorry. Whatever he did or was doing the drugs weren't strong enough to keep hold of his demons.

They unleashed from the depths of his subconscious mind and the thought of me came in vividly. We both had this crippling power over each other. It held us together it revealed the pain,joy,tears and love that we had for one another.

I kissed his cheeks and covered him with the covers as I  watched the sun peek through the clouds. These past few months have been a definite roller-coaster for the both of us. This was the start of our beginning. But with every new beginning you have to let go of the past.

It was going to be a long rode but Abel had to choose me or Valerie. She sucked him into this fog of control and decite. No matter how much he said they were done I knew it wasn't true. I know he was with her last night. But she wasn't my battle to fight.

After reading through Abel's diaries and hearing his music fucking him and then some he still was looking for something. He was still searching for that love of a woman and he continued to test me and push me to the max. Yet I stood firm and tall as Valerie manipulated him with drugs and women. When he was with me he didn't need that. She fed his demons she fed his weakness she fed him lies.

Whilst I fed him hope and love with promises filled with devotion and truth. But her grip on him got tighter as he fell for me as his heart uprooted from the shackles of her mental cage she restricted his mental airways with codine and methazine. His lungs filled with liquor and his body possessed by the women.

My own demons made me cave made me weak by my own parents mental mind fuck. I grew up in a web of lies and a constant reminder of the woman would hated me most. Sheryl only dealt with me because she was to feeble minded and love struck that she cared for his bastard child who's own mother cared more about money and designer things. Not the disgusting mistake that came from the depths of hell.

I had to face them and be the woman the women in my life could never be. Help the man I loved fight his way through the pit of evil that consumed him.

He struggled with the mother who took pride it what she wanted  with a new every night inside of her. Exposing him to the hate yet the beautiful essence of a woman. The love she had for him wasn't very much. But he found it in Ming but she to came with false hope a misguided understanding of what he was and hoe delicate his heart and mind was she didn't love him. Then came Valerie when he was already vulnerable and seeking for what was missing from the women he had already felt the truth creeping in. She molded him into the sheep dog that she wanted. For him to beg her for a lousy bone and a fast life to ease his horrid thoughts. But it only manifested as the demons in his  mind tried to break free.

The women we had in our lives were one in the same. They either used love as a way to control us or they just didn't give two flying cats asses about us. But we met in the darkest of our times and the crying of our souls. He chased me and hid behind the shadows of his insecurities. It gave him the thrill to experience love with a flawless image but I didn't judge his imperfections.

I enjoyed his flaws they made him the man he was. I loved how his hair sat weird on the top of his head it gave him character. When you saw him his ora gravitated you to him. But I loved him for being him his own man in his right. Through everything he still was able to still be loved and love without being manipulated or tricked into it.

I felt levitated through all this I wanted to be happy about the obsticles that we got through together. Any progress rather big or small was better than no progress. My lover was mines and no one would know how to love him but me no one would know how he loves they couldn't understand it. But I did he was made for me and I was made for him.

"ABIGAIL!" He yelled out of his sleep.

I turned quickly on my heels to see him in a panic. I went to comfort him and let him know I was still here.

"Baby I'm here." I said pulling his head to my chest so he could hear my heart beat.

He held onto me as if the darkness of the demons was chasing him. It was time to let his God out of his pocket. The one that made him redder than the devil and give into the one true God who could only save his tarnishing soul. I wished I could take away his suffering and cast the dark entities to hell. But all I could do was be on his side and stand with him good and bad right and wrong.

"I'm sorry Abigail! I know I said I was tired of that word but that's before I knew what all to sorry about. I'm sorry for everything." He cried.

I rubbed his back as he let out his emotions. They stained my gown and I wouldn't want it any other way I wanted to put all the bad in the trash.

"What exactly are you sorry about now?" I asked.

"Last night I was with Valerie and Crystal. I was zoned the fuck out. I couldn't take you damn near killing yourself all because of my fucked up ways and the way treated you. So I self indulged but I couldn't focus. I kept seeing you as much drugs I took I kept seeing you and hearing tell me you love me." He said feeling my chest rise and fall.

It was hard hearing the truth.

"Did you fuck them?" I asked.

His eyes spoke before his mouth did but instead of turning away I held him closer to me.

"I went to the bathroom and I saw you hanging so raced to the hospital. But when I got here it was too late. You was gone, I was gone. In that moment I felt your life gone so mines died with you. But I came to and realized that I was dreaming. The drugs showed me where I was going." He said gripping my gown.

"Abel we need to get through this and we will. My heart beats for you and only you. I'm willing to do whatever it takes to make us work." I said seriously.

Our eyes connected and we saw the real us in each other and our future together in that moment without the drugs, girls and Valerie.

This type of love didn't come very OFTEN

She asked me if do this everyday, i said Often
Ask how many times she rode the waves,not so often
Bitches down to do it either way, Often
Baby, I can make that pussy rain, Often
Often ,often girl I do this often
Make that pussy poppin',do it how i want it,
Often, often girl I do this often
Make that pussy poppin',do it how I Want it often

She asked me do I fall in love i said not so Often

I could never find this type of love not that often

☆☆I had to throw this in I love this song lol☆☆