BURN "28 Flames" Book One

Lonely Star(4)

I threw my bag to the floor as I was exhausted from the meeting with my client he had changed everything that I offered him. All my hard work on that portfolio and research had gone all to waste. I could've smacked the oversized contruction business owner with the hard scone he barely ate. I flopped down on the chaise and blew out an exaggerated deep breath. Dropping him would've been ideal but I had to put my personal issues with the asshole he was aside and remember this was business and he was my client who could potentially spread the word to his friends, collegues, empolyees ect.

My phone vibrated as a text came in with a number and name I knew all to well. I hadn't seen him since that night he hadn't even snuck into the house while I slept. He would call or text me but mostly call me and I get to hear him talk about how he needs to add somethings to his portfolio. It's not all business but he doesn't say much to me about anything just how he's away on a business trip. I found myself many times ready to google his name and find out who was making me feel the way I do.

The pain and regret i felt for letting this go on for so long made me wonder what was wrong with me. I hated looking at my real self in the mirror because the woman that stared back at me wasn't who I liked very much. She had to much baggage and to many bad memories that stained her image that was written all over her face. The book I became was one that many could relate to but he gave me solitude and an escape to another world from the one I lived in day in and day out. My disdain for him was the feeling of being used and laughed at by his games and antics that made me feel less than. But in the same time giving me pleasure and subtance something I was shuned from ever experiencing. His control made me feel wanted and in a sick way loved because he came back time after time. I laid in the fetal position on the couch and stared into space thinking about him and me. A tear rolled down my cheek and my head began to pound from the constant thought of him. Finally dozing off to sleep my phone rang out waking me up. It was dark in the entire house not a single light was on and I searched around the table for my phone and grabbed it. An email from my client reminding me that he had sent out my check for the month. I tossed the phone to the bottom of the chaise and covered myself up with my throw blanket to try and fall back to sleep.

I was thinking about her as the nights events faded into the back of my mind. Trying to take myself away from the thought of her I knew she was lonely. I was lonely too and the women that were scattered across the bed half naked and drunk weren't appeasing. I was coming down and i wanted to be with Abigail. The laughs and giggles that filled the room was making me feel like I needed to take a few more codine pills and the smoke that filled the room only seemed to make the thought a necessity. Finally feeling the affects of my high again Abigail was a distant memory and Dia was now in my lap turning her tricks. The numb feeling that washed over me didn't change a thing for her she continued. My eyes closed as she did her thing and the sounds that filled the room seemed to go mute. Nights and days seemed to run together and I wasn't anywhere near heading back to Ontario. But I knew I would have to make a trip back just to see her.

The sun crept into the window shining in my face as I tried to fully wake up. Suzy wanted me to go to this bar with her later today. I needed to get away from the thoughts of him and this apartment because it only made me think of him more hoping to see him one night at least. I didn't care if he would just come to tease me and leave. I just wanted to feel his presence. I got up from my chaise and went to get in my bed it was a Saturday and nothing needed to be done I was able to mail my brother and parents their gifts. I snuggled under my covers and hugged my other pillow and fell back to sleep.

Suzy called and said she was on her way. I took a long shower and put on a flared dress and some boots with my hair in a wet curl. My makeup was light and some blue raspberry lipstick to match my dress and my mood. I took a once over and was satisfied with my look. She hunked the horn for me. I put on my coat and grabbed my keys and wallet. My phone began to ring. "Hello." "Hey Abigail." It was him he had finally called since the other day. "Hi Tesfaye. How are you?" I asked. "I'm ok. How are you doing without me?" he had to ask. "I'm doing ok I'm on my way out for a few hours can we talk a little later." I said hearing Suzy heavy hand on the horn. "Sure." call ended flashed on my screen. I hurried and locked the door and headed to the car checking around to see if anyone was around.

"What took you so long Abby?" she said pulling off into traffic. "I had to finish putting on my makeup and I had got a call." i said. "From who your little friend that you probably still haven't seen." she said laughing at herself. But she was right I still have yet to see who he was. "What's his name?" I cleared my throat to answer. "He's a client and I can't disclose his name to you. That's why you've never heard me mention it that's how I met him." I said playing it safe because she'd be the one to google him and I didn't want to spoil it that way. "Oh bummer. So you ready to have a few drinks." she said all giddy. "Yea I need a drink and to clear my mind."

We both stumbled into the house drunk and laughing at nothing in particular than our own drunken ignorance. I fell to the floor giggling over in pain at her falling up the stairs. We crawled into the living room laying on our backs trying to calm down. I had to pee and walking there wasn't going to get it. I crawled to the bathroom and sat on the toilet. When I noticed I wasn't alone I panicked knowing it was him but I didn't want Suzy seeing him. I saw his sihlouette coming towards me I hurried and finshed so I could close my doors. Rushing past his embrace I went to shut the door and locking it so she couldn't come in.

"What are you doin here? I thought you were away on business." he pulled me into him turning me around with my back to him. "I came to see you. I can't stay long but i knew you were lonely without me." I tried to get out of his grip but he only held me tighter. "What if i would've had company over? You can't keep showing up unannounced or whenever you feel like it." I felt my sobriety kicking in. "I know you wouldn't bring anyone here but your friend." he said inbetween kisses.

He covered my mouth with his hand as the other one roamed up my skirt and he tugged at my panties pulling them down as they hit the floor. He pushed me to walk to the wall as my face pressed against it and his hand still covering my mouth. I felt him rip my strap on my dress as he kissed the tattoo that lined my neck. His hand found its way to her as he played and pulled at her. The affection he was showing her made me want to scream he worked her in and out and around. Then I felt him secure himself inside of her stroking her lightly with every stroke stronger than the last. My eyes rolled around in my head but he kept his hand over my mouth. I was feeling it, it was roaring near I clawed at the wall trying to find something to grip but his hold on me wasn't the same. He wasn't teasing me he was giving me what I wanted. I cried out in the inside as we both went limp into the wall his lips settled on my shoulder. I calmed down and my legs trembled with him still inside. He pulsated and I squeezed my muscles around him. He felt it and he held onto my stomach as his head laid on my back. This was the first time he had held onto me like this. He helped me over to the bed taking me out of my clothes and boots and put the cover over me before kissing my forehead and leaving without nothing more to say. Soon after I fell asleep. It was one lonely star out in the sky that night.