BURN "28 Flames" Book One

The Fall 24

After hours at the river I drove home absent minded everything was taking its toll on me. When I got there Suzy was upset yelling about being worried. She tried calling Abel but he told her he hadn't seen me. I just apologized and went to my room my clothes were a mess and my make was smugged.

I came out of my clothes and took a shower I took some sleeping pills to help me sleep. But my thoughts were nagging me so much. It was time I was ready I was done. He was gone and I couldn't live without him. I just couldn't shake him or my feelings.

After my shower I put my chair in the middle of the floor and tied a sheet into a noose. I couldn't cry I wanted the pain to end so bad that I couldn't cry. I stood in the chair and was about to put my head in the noose when Suzy pushed the door open.  Scaring me I fell out of the chair bumping my head on the the bottom frame of the bed.

The pain shot through my body as she screamed panicking. I lost all consciousness from that moment.

I woke up in an agonizing pain with needles and machines hooked up to me. My vision was blurred and the faint sounds of people talking echoed. I just closed my eyes and went back unconscious.

Finally able to wake up I saw the TV on and Suzy with my mom talking. I rolled my eye's knowing she was there.

" Abby!" Suzy yelled in excitment.

" Abigail Marie Trotter!" My mom yelled in anger.

I smiled and stared at the two of them as they came to my bedside.

" Is everything ok?" I asked.

They both looked at me with these glares.

"You almost lost the baby Abby. What were you thinking?" Suzy cried.

"Lord knows you don't need a baby. And to know that you hid it from your father and i." She whined.

She always seemed to make shit about her and David. I rolled my eye's and looked to see if Abel was there but to my dismay he wasnt.

"Did you call Abel?" I asked Suzy.

She looked at my mother.

"I put him out I've heard about the bullshit he's put you through. He's been told not to show up here." My mother commanded

"How dare you? Yoy have no fucking right to choose who comes to see me. And Suzy for you to even tell her anything. How could you betray me like that?" I yelled at them both.

Suzy stood with tears in her eyes but knew Sheryl probed hee for information.

"You were about to hang yourself over that fool. To take your life over some man is absurd. We didn't raise you like that Abigail we raised with dignity." She boosted.

"Well I'm sorry if I'm not like you drinking myself in a drunken stupor finding my sorrows at the bottom of some Vodka bottle. Maybe you should have done David and us a favor and killed yourself then we wouldn't have to watch you killing yourself slowly and painfully. Your no better than me and David is no better than Abel. So you can sit on your invisible high horse and look at me through your  vodka bottle but you are still no better than me." I snarled.

She looked at me shocked and appalled by my blunt hurtful truth.

"I'll  be a better mother than you and that witch that gave birth to me. I won't except a pay off because shes half a woman that can't bare her own children. So I'm having a baby and your mad." I boosted.

She slapped the left side of my face causing me to shoot evil darts at her.

Suzy watched in awe as my family secrets spewed out in the essence of this hospital room.

"Call Abel now!" I demanded.

She looked to be ready to protest but felt no need in digging herself deeper into a hole.

After she left out the room I cried so hard I thought my brain would ooz out of my ears. I had finally unleashed the dragon and it hurt but gave me relief. Before I would drown my feelings out with alcohol or drugs but I wasn't going back to self medicating. And to know that I was that far over the deep end to try and kill myself made me cringe.

The door opened slowly and I whipped my face. I saw Abel with Suzy right behind him.

He flashed a saddened smile.

"How are you?" He asked walking closer.

I shrugged my shoulders. " I don't know anymore." I said honestly.

He pushed the strands of hair out of my face and admired my bare skin.

"I just hurt my mother's feelings. But I had to let her know that she was apart of this just as much as you were." I scoofed.

"I have tried to figure out what to say to you but I couldn't find the words. Sorry doesn't help and I'm so tired of hearing the word. I know I pushed you Abigail and I would spend the rest of my life making it up to you. I didn't mean anything that I said to you. I could never hate you." He said with guilt.

I let my tears fall.

"Abel I can't live without you but it's next to impossible to live with you. You run to Valerie every time and it hurts me so much. I can't stress to you enough how much I love you. Fuck Abel." I squealed.

He pulled the covers back and climbs in next me. He rubbed my belly as our baby boy kicked around.

"You scared me Abigail. I thought I lost you. When Suzy called me hysterical saying you tried to kill yourself I freaked out. I could live with him not making as hard as it would be to lose him. But with you here I know we could have another, but I'm glad he strong holding on." He said kissing my belly

My heart melted because I know if I would've killed myself he would have nobody. Valerie didn't care about him she used him against me. And at least that little boy would be here.

" Abel I was going to kill myself because you hated me. It's too hard not having you or your love. I need you with me I made promises to you and I want to keep them. But Valerie is in the way. I'm not going to compete with her." I explained.

He lifted his head up and kissed my lips.

"I would've been dying that night with you. I don't hate you I was angry more at myself for hurting you and pushing you into another man's arms. I have to protect you and you've protected me. But I promise Valerie won't come in between us again. Just swear to me you won't ever try that shit again or our child would be parentless." He said seriously.

I choked back my tears and nodded my head in understanding. This little boy needed us and our ways had to change. We had to become one.

I fell asleep with my face nudge into his chest. He held me and never left when I woke up he was still there.

I was her Romeo and she was my Juliet.  If she died I was going with her ain't nothing on this earth here for me but her and my son. Without her I have nobody but him, without him and her I have nobody. I just wish I was there when she went through THE FALL.