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Chapter Seventeen

Chapter Seventeen

I was awkwardly forced through the door by Harry. It was quickly slammed shut behind us and I was fiercely pressed against it. My heart began to race as I realised that I had never done anything like this before. I had never even kissed a boy and now I had Harry grinding his hips into mine. His lips showered hot kisses to my neck and his large hands were spread either side of my head on the door. We continued to passionately kiss when Harry scooped his large hands under my thighs to hold me in bridal style. He turned to lock the door and then carried me upstairs towards my bedroom, flicking the hall light off as he passed.

Once we were in my bedroom Harry put me down so I was stood in front of him, our eyes locking. He stepped forwards and lowered his head to mine. He placed more hot kisses around the tingling skin beneath my ear. He placed his large hands on my waist, carefully tracing circles into the material of the dress that I was wearing again. I took in a sharp breath when I felt Harry’s hands lightly squeeze my bum. He laughed beneath the kisses that he was placing to my skin.

He could tell I was nervous and clearly knew that I had never done this sort of thing before. He placed his hand gently on my back before pulling me closer to him. “Calm down baby” his raspy voice rumbled in my ear. He stripped me from the jacket I was wearing and flung it onto the chair that was perched beneath my desk. He then bent down to his knee to unfasten my shoes and quickly pushed them to the side. He stood up again, his height towering over me once more.

The room was dark as the lights had not been turned on and the curtains were half drawn, with just a small slither of light passing in from the street light outside my window. Even in the darkness, Harry stood out. He was perfect. He decreased the distance between us again, pulling me closer. He looked down at me, green orbs connecting with my brown ones. He gently pushed me further and further towards the bed whilst connecting in a passionate kiss. Once we reached the bed, I sat down on it, releasing my lips from Harry’s.

He smiled down at me and lowered to my level. My breath trembled in short puffs. “Are you sure you want to do this baby? There’s no pressure” my heart began to race. However, I wanted to intimately connect to Harry and I wanted to experience everything with him. I nodded reluctantly, bowing my head. He cupped my chin and lifted my eye line to meet his. He leant forward and left a lingering hot kiss to my lips. He gently placed his hands on my shoulders and lowered me slowly to the bed. I propped myself up on my elbows and deeply gazed into Harry’s eyes.

He slowly lifted his hands and placed them on the insides of both of my thighs. I sharply took in a breath when I felt hot air race up the insides on my thighs. Suddenly, the air was forced upon my knickers. His raspy laugh sounded as I tried to force my legs together, but his strength held them apart. He used the palm of his hand and began to rub circles over the material of my knickers. My breathing increased, not used to the new sensation I was experiencing.

Harry’s long finger hooked into my knickers and pushed them to the side. He smiled as I came into full show. He lowered his head and kissed the sensitive spot at the top of my vagina. I jumped as his fingers began to lightly trace circles around the newly found part of my body. My breathing continued to increase, not being able to control it. The sensation was overpowering, something that I could never have prepared myself for.

Harry used his fingers to feel and tease my entrance. “Babe, you’re so wet” he mumbled. Thank god the room was in darkness because I felt the heat rising to my cheeks. I dropped my head back to hide the embarrassment further. Harry’s index finger was then slowly inserted into my entrance. He held his finger in place as my walls tightened around him. I didn’t quite know how to feel. The sensation was uncomfortable but bearable. He slowly withdrew his finger before inserting it again. A slight moan fell from my lips.

He repeated the action slowly a couple more times before slightly increasing the pace of his actions. His name fell from my lips in gasps, not able to control what I was doing. I fisted the bed sheets to try and release some of the tension in my body. “Say my name baby” Harry whispered. My voice becoming increasingly louder as the pumping action became faster. “More baby, scream my name” My voice continued to get louder until I was practically screaming Harry’s name in between short and sharp breaths. The moans falling from my lips were uncontainable but I was somehow pleasured with the actions that were taking place.

Harry mumbled in satisfaction as the sensation was heightening. The pumping becoming faster and faster. It was becoming out of control. I lifted my head to see Harry’s head bowed. His lip was brought between his teeth and his eyes were tightly closed. I couldn’t bear this anymore. He wasn’t right. I tried to pull away from Harry but his grip tightened around my right thigh as the pumping continued to become more vigorous. I cried out his name but he wasn’t listening. Satisfied mumbles left his lips.

The pain was becoming too intense and I couldn’t last the unruly actions anymore. I reached forward and touched Harry’s face with my soft fingers. Tracing circles into his cheeks. Suddenly, his eyes flung open and the colour had become vibrant black. I cried out, hoping that he would see what he had caused. His face drained of colour and his eyes quickly faded to a duller version of his usual sparkling green. He quickly withdrew his finger and stared longingly into my eyes. I fell back to the bed with a sigh, not able to function after the vigorous actions that had just occurred.

“Baby, I’m so sorry” he whispered, a hitch in his voice as he spoke. I couldn’t respond, the breath taken out of me. He stood up and walked around the bed to kneel by my head. He took my left hand in both of his and gently rubbed over the knuckles with his thumb. His head still bowed. I turned my head and looked at the boy in front of me. He lifted his head and locked eye contact with mine. “Baby. That was your first time. I’m so sorry.” He uttered, genuine pleading in his voice. I smiled in the darkness. I awkwardly raised myself onto my elbows again and released my hand from his.

I cupped his chin and pulled him closer to me before passionately connecting in a kiss. “You came back” I whispered. Confusion crossed Harry’s features. He shook his head, not understanding what I meant. “Your eyes, they were black and I touched your face, you came back to me again.” He smiled. “It’s because you’re my weakness baby. I’m sorry, that shouldn’t have happened” he whispered. He leant forwards, connecting with me in a warm embrace. I quickly fumbled with my dress and pulled it down to hide my dignity.

We remained cuddled for a few minutes before Harry stood up and went over to my draws. Clearly knowing where everything was, he pulled out a pair of clean pyjamas and a fresh pair of knickers. He handed them to me and walked towards the door. “Shout me when you’re done” he said, before he winked and left the room. I lay motionless on the bed, not able to move. I couldn’t contemplate what had happened between me and Harry just a few minutes before. His darkness was really starting to scare me, but somehow, I seemed to be able to control it.

I quickly changed, throwing my used clothes in a heap on the floor. I called Harry in. He entered through the doorway and stood staring at me. “Wow” he said, “you look amazing.” I blushed. He made his way over to the bed again, quickly stripping from his clothes down to his black boxer shorts. We both got into the bed. Harry pulled me closer so I had my head on his chest. The steady pace of his heartbeat lulled me off into a deep sleep.

“You’re my weakness baby” Harry whispered whilst I was asleep on his chest. “I'll never let you go. I'll keep you safe, you're mine.”