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Tw : Self harm , panic attack , nightmare , ptsd (child abuse , rape) NOT PROOD READ 

Tw : Self harm , panic attack , nightmare , ptsd (child abuse , rape) NOT PROOD READ 

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427 Days. 

472 days since Jungkook got clean of harming himself and it couldn't have been for the members and himself . 

Even tho he had those days where he just wanted to grab the blade , his members were there for him and helped him . He went up to them and talked about his worries and what he had on his mind . 

He went to therapy for about a month but everyone realized , he now is able to control himself . 

There weren't any incidents , no , everything seemed like it was completely normal . 

Well , little did the members knew that Jungkook had those nightmares again for about a week now . 

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"Hyungs I'm gonna go to sleep , I am pretty tired after practice." The maknae showed them his shiny smile before saying goodnight and disappearing into his room . He didn't even care to turn on the lights and immediately lets himself fall on his bed. 

He didn't actually want to go to sleep , he was so scared to have a nightmare again - But todays practice was so exhausting that Jungkook couldn't help himself and just take a quick nap in his fluffy bed . 

Jungkook Point Of View:

*sigh* I pulled the white covers over my body and felt my head softly sinking into the soft pillow . 

I felt the tiredness catching up as I barely could hold my eyes open . I closed them , feeling my body relax after a long day of dancing and singing . 

I rolled onto my side , hugging the pillow for some kind of comfort . I hope I won't get a nightmare because they are really getting to my mind lately . 

Without any more thoughts I felt myself drifting off as I finally did . 

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"You useless peace of shit!" Dad screamed while dragging me down the stairs by my hair . The piercing pain ran thru my whole body as I cried for help . 

The next second I got thrown to the cold , hard floor . I felt my ribs slowly getting crushed as he stepped onto them . My mind full of worries and silent emergency calls . 

"Oh you should not have done that you fucking dirt ." I looked into his burned up eyes , a slight smirk playing on his red face. I knew what was coming next and I do not want to relive that again . 

"No .. no please d-don't" I begged , endless tears falling down my face and in that moment I thought about how much I needed to cry so that I dont have any tears left . 

"You really thought I'm gonna let that slide slut ? I told you many times not to slam the door and you wouldn't listen , that was my finally straw." He laughed with that evil stare , slowly nearing me and my heartbeat increased. 

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