Lots of Jungkook hurt/sick one shots. There will be many many triggers and I will put every trigger at the beginning of the chapters .
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TW: smoking , alcohol , ptsd (child abuse) , mention of suicide attempt NOT PROOF READ
Why was Jungkook always smoking and drinking ?
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Four months ago it started with a single bottle soju just to have some fun , until it became drinking everyday to shut up the memories .
Few months ago it started with a pack of cigarettes lasting for a month , until it became a pack lasting two days to shut up the memories.
Was it a healthy way to cope with the pain ? absolutely no .
Was it the only solution for Jungkook ? hell yes.
Therapy ? Please do not talk about it , if he goes to therapy he's weak and lets his mind win .
Talking with the members about it ? Never , they will laugh at his stupid little story .
Thats why Jungkook decided to just drink beer after beer and smoke every chance he got . Destroying himself wasn't something to talk about , he already is dead in his mind.
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With a loud groan the 26 year old boy sat down on the chair , beer in one hand and cigarette in the other - He looked at the stars above him and lets the cold breeze hit him .
It's the time of the day where he could be himself . Talk with himself and cry to himself .
No one would disturb him , scold him and he doesn't need to worry to get caught in a form .
Yes the members knew that the maknae smokes and that he drinks , but due to the heavy schedule they didn't notice it was that bad.
They didn't smell the constant scent of alcohol and cigarettes or the way Jungkooks eye bags got heavier and deeper .
Jungkook chugged down half of the beer , his throat burning but in a good way . He liftet the cigarette , wrapped his chapped lips around it and inhaled the toxic air . He held it in for a few seconds before blowing it out onto the sky full of stars .
"Kookie , what are you doing here? It's nearly 12pm." he shut his eyes at the sudden voice coming from behind him .
He looked back , starring at a Taehyung wrapped in a thin white blanket and tired eyes barely held open .
He shouldn't be annoyed by the presence of his lovely member , but this was HIS time of the day that he could spent alone . ALONE.
"Admiring the stars." he looked back up again , surprised when the elder sat beside him and pulled his legs to his chest .
Jungkook knew that the other one did not like the smell of smoke which made him turn away .
"You look sad , you know you can talk to me , right?" Jungkook nodded , taking another sip of the drink . He knew that he could talk to the members and trust them , but if he lets himself talk to them is something different .
