He lost his memory after confessing to his straight boyfriend

Chapter 87 Extra 3: Heart-warming moments

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Bai Jiayan and Si Zhou are closest to home I attend a junior high school in a public school and wear a rustic uniform like other students. The summer was extremely hot, but he was reluctant to turn on the air conditioner in the classroom, so Sizhou took him outside to enjoy the coolness under the shade of a tree.

In fact, he was not particularly slow in observing words and emotions, so he realized that Sizhou was inexplicably depressed today. He moved a little closer to Sizhou and said cautiously: "Is it too hot? Let me fan you."

After saying that, he picked up the school card hanging around his neck and fanned Sizhou vigorously. Several times. It's just that the power of the small card is limited, and no matter how hard it is, there are only a few weak winds.

"No, don't work yourself hard." Sizhou forced Bai Jiayan's hand down.

Bai Jiayan said in an affirmative tone, "You're not happy."

"Xiao Jiayan," Si Zhou leaned against Bai Jiayan, "my mother said she wanted to send me to high school abroad."

Bai Jiayan was like a machine that stopped running. After being stunned for a long time, he finally suppressed the inexplicable emotion in his chest and said, "Isn't that a good thing? Foreign schools must be much better than Xia Cang."

"I can't be with you when I go abroad." Si Zhou said. His hands played with Bai Jiayan's hair.

The reluctance overflowing in Bai Jiayan's body screamed and wanted to be expressed, but his reason stopped him back in the cage first.

Just because she wants to be with Si Zhou, she can't say she's reluctant and wants him to stay. Bai Jiayan thought, he is a mature junior high school student and he must learn to consider others when speaking.

"How is that possible? I will call you often and charge a lot of money to make international long distance calls for you."

Sizhou didn't seem to be satisfied with his reply: "Won't you be reluctant to let me go?"

"Then it will definitely happen...

"Then I won't go. I'll stay here with you." "

No," Bai Jiayan couldn't help but frown, "You can definitely learn more abroad than in Xia Cang. You should go for such a good opportunity." ."

"But you can't let me go."

"Well, I can let it go now," Bai Jiayan simply said something against his will, "You can go abroad."

Sizhou's face suddenly became very ugly, as if he was about to leave in the next second. A thunder fell: "Bai Jiayan, tell me again."

"I..." Bai Jiayan's heart trembled because of the other person's expression, "I am willing to let you go abroad."

"Okay, then I will go. I am so willing. Just don't call me. I won't answer your calls or read your messages. You don't care anyway."

Bai Jiayan didn't know if he should refute for a while. Before he could think about it, Sizhou Just stood up and walked away. Bai Jiayan subconsciously chased after him, but couldn't even catch a piece of the other party's clothes.

It's over, I made him angry again. Bai Jiayan thought, but if he takes the initiative to reconcile, will Sizhou stop going abroad?

Bai Jiayan thought about this problem for a whole afternoon. When school was over, Sizhou was not waiting for him in the corridor. He was walking home alone, with reconciliation still on his mind.

Wait until he goes abroad to make a phone call and reconcile?

This is the best way Bai Jiayan thought of.

But it was so difficult to endure not talking to him for so long.

Bai Jiayan sighed imperceptibly. In order for Sizhou to go to a good high school, he had to endure it even if he couldn't bear it.

...

Sizhou's position happened to be right behind Bai Jiayan. Bai Jiayan couldn't help but not look back. Even if he wanted to know Si Zhou's condition, he just asked his deskmate in a low voice: "What is Si Zhou doing now?"

"Wouldn't you know if you look back?"

"I can't look back."

"Why? ? Are you having a stiff neck?"

Bai Jiayan: "..."

At this time, Bai Jiayan could only leave his seat, go to the corridor and lie down in front of the classroom window, where he happened to see Si Zhou sleeping on the table.

Don't answer questions? Didn't you sleep well last night?

It shouldn't be... He didn't go to practice the piano last night, so he should be able to go to bed early without being disturbed.

I really want to ask him, I really want to know.

Bai Jiayan looked away and forced himself not to be curious.

The deadlock was finally broken on the third day. Bai Jiayan was sitting in her room at home, scrolling through her phone casually, when she suddenly received a message from Si Zhou: [Xiao Jiayan, what should I do? I'm at home now]

[I'm so scared, there's a lot of blood]

Bai Jiayan is scared I could barely hold my phone steady, so I immediately sent a message to ask what happened, but the other party didn't reply for a long time. After thinking about it, he decided to go directly to Sizhou's house, otherwise he would not be able to feel at ease.

He almost ran to knock on the door of Sizhou's house. It wasn't until he broke into the other party's room that he found that the other party had nothing to do at all. He was just sitting on the blanket and looking at his mobile phone.

"You are finally willing to look at me." Sizhou took three steps in front of him and put his forehead on Bai Jiayan's shoulder, "Don't ignore me, don't ignore me, okay? I will go abroad and say you can't bear to leave me. You want to say that you can't let me go."

"I can't let you go." Bai Jiayan couldn't help but raise her hand to touch the other person's hair, "But don't do that next time, I will worry."

"I promise you, you will take care of me . I promise you everything."

...

Sizhou's departure date was set at the end of the semester. Bai Jiayan watched the other party packing his luggage alone in the room. There was no trace of joy in the other party's expression.

"Sizhou..."

"What's wrong?"

"It's okay," Bai Jiayan thought about it, but said nothing, "Have a nice trip."

This state continued until Bai Jiayan personally took Sizhou to the airport. Sizhou's parents were on a business trip. Uncle Zhang drove Sizhou directly to the airport and relayed what his parents wanted to explain and the boarding process.

Sizhou nodded and dragged his suitcase inside.

Bai Jiayan stood outside the car, watching the other person's back getting further and further away, turning back to look at him from time to time, but he endured it and did not catch up.

Reluctant to part with it.

Still reluctant to let go, still want to see him every day.

Until Si Zhou disappeared from sight, Bai Jiayan turned around and was about to leave. Before he could take a few steps, he felt someone behind him hugging him hard.

"Si...zhou?"

"I won't leave," Sizhou said with extra strength in his hands. "I don't know anyone over there, and I don't have you, so I won't leave at all."

"But..." "

No. But." After Sizhou said this, his lips touched Bai Jiayan's face.

The air was still for a moment.

Bai Jiayan turned around stiffly and met Sizhou's gaze. The other party's expression was as astonished as his, as if even he himself didn't expect that he would do such a thing.

Was that a kiss just now?

Logically speaking, being kissed by a friend should feel strange and awkward, or just treat it as a slapstick and not care, but he noticed that his face was getting hot and his heart was beating faster and faster.

Sizhou's face was also very red. He thought maybe it was too hot because he had just run over.

"It's just a joke between friends, don't be so scared," Sizhou looked a little uncomfortable for no reason, "I often kiss puppies and kittens, that's what I mean, I often fool around with my friends."

"Oh..." I don't know why, Bai Jiayan was a little disappointed.

"If you don't like it, I won't play with it anymore. Don't show such an expression, as if... you've seen a ghost." Sizhou put the luggage in the trunk, "Get in the car, let's go back first."

...

Bai Jiayan kept He was still worried about Sizhou kissing him. As for the specific reason, he himself couldn't explain clearly.

"Xiao Jiayan," Sizhou at the back table suddenly raised his hand and poked his back, "I'm going to the rooftop after school, please wait for me a little longer."

Bai Jiayan nodded without thinking much. When school was over, he waited at the stairs and watched Sizhou go up the steps to the rooftop.

He waited for a long time, but no one came down, so he couldn't help but go upstairs to check. He couldn't help but imagine what happened on the rooftop. He was not a fool. He knew that asking someone to go to the rooftop would either be a fight or a confession.

No way...what happened?

The more Bai Jiayan thought about it, the more worried he became, and his steps became faster and faster. As soon as he arrived on the rooftop, he saw another boy grabbing Si Zhou's arm, and torn pieces of love letters were scattered on the ground.

Sizhou shook the boy away fiercely: "Don't you understand human language? I said I don't like you. I don't like you now and I won't in the future. No matter how hard you try, you can't. Do you understand?

" Zhou used too much force and the boy fell to the ground. The latter slowly got up, ignoring the dirt on his body, and hurriedly left downstairs, bypassing Bai Jiayan.

"Are you okay?" Bai Jiayan hurriedly approached and felt relieved when he saw that there was no damage on Sizhou's body.

He recognized the person just now. He was the study committee member of the next class. He played ball with Si Zhou and had a good relationship.

"He actually..."

"I didn't expect that either." Sizhou said helplessly, "We can't even be friends now, but there's nothing we can do about it."

Friends.

Bai Jiayan didn't know why he suddenly linked this word to the airport in his mind. He subconsciously asked, "Have you ever kissed him and played with him?"

"No." Si Zhou almost blurted out, "Do you care about this?"

"I... won't be able to bear it." Bai Jiayan couldn't help imagining such a scene, but it made him feel so uncomfortable that his body was twisted into a ball in just a moment.

Blushing, heartbeat, plus the jealousy now spawned from imagination, everything points to the same answer.

Bai Jiayan did not choose to draw a clear outline for it now. He would not have imagined what a behemoth it would become in the future, weighing heavily on his heart.

"You can't stand me kissing him?"

"Yeah."

"...or can't you say, can't you stand a man kissing a man?"

He couldn't stand Si Zhou kissing him. Say no? Sizhou wouldn't go and kiss other friends, would he?

"...Forget it, let's call it that."

"I know," Sizhou paused, his expression complex in a way that Bai Jiayan couldn't understand, "I don't kiss anyone, don't be afraid of me."

"I'm not afraid of you." Bai Jiayan It seemed that he was worried that the other party would not believe him, so he took the initiative to grab the other party's wrist.

"Well, let's go home."

Sizhou let Bai Jiayan hold him and go downstairs. Bai Jiayan always felt as if the palm of his hand was always hot. He had grabbed Si Zhou's wrist, but the temperature became particularly clear after that thought emerged.

"Xiao Jiayan, my mother was very angry when she heard about this yesterday, but she understood me."

"Did I scold you?" Bai Jiayan felt nervous.

"A few words, it's nothing. It's really my fault."

Bai Jiayan awkwardly said a few words of comfort. Sizhou turned to look at him: "I was scolded because of you. It's not too much to let you stay with me in this life. Right?"

"A few words of scolding are so expensive..." It took him a lifetime to pay back a few words. He was really a profiteer.

However, he doesn't care.

"Well, I'll accompany you."

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