WORK || TOM KAULITZ

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"He's a real......" "something" David whispers to me once Tom has moved to at least some distance. I look at him cracking a smile.

"But he sees you" he adds looking at Tom who is currently talking to Bill. "Sees me?" I ask. "A chef you are" "should have been a poet" I say laughing at his words. "I'm serious" he says smiling. I keep quiet. "He looks at you with such....." "love" "In a way I can't explain it" he adds.
As soon as he says that sentence Tom turns to look straight at me. His eyes making their way to me even from all across the room. Seconds later I can see him excusing himself and walk away. To me.

As soon as he reaches me he takes out his hand to me. I take it without even questioning it. He leads me all the way to the door of a spare room.

"Where are you going?" I ask. He ignores my question and takes us to the room, closing the door behind. "I have missed you" he says. There is something about him. "Are you alright?" I ask. He looks down and then back up at me. "Yeah" "you?" He asks. "Yeah ditto" I say unsure of what was going on. "Tom is there som-" he cuts me off, kissing me.

I quickly pull away. "Tom what are you doing?"

Tom's pov

"Tom what are you doing?" She asks almost disappointed. I take a step away from her. Her face twists.

"I love you" I say.

Ela's pov

I take a deep breath. He just stands there looking at me. Waiting for me. Waiting for me to tell him that I love him too, and I do. It's just too soon. "Tom.."

"I'm sorry" he starts. "I didn't mean to do that. I know it's soon" I simply nod my head smiling to reassure him it's okay.

"I'm sorry for leaving" "sorry for being a dumbass" "sorry for not letting you help me" "I just though..."  he looks at me as if he was unsure if he can tell me. "I thought that if I was around you in that state I would hurt you" he continues. "Hurt me how?" I ask. He flinches. "Like they did" he says referring to my parents almost whispering. He stays quiet for a few seconds.

"I couldn't live if I did something to you" he says.

"Tom it's-"

"I know I fucked up"

"Tom I unde-"

"I really fucked up"

"It's alr-"

"Ela don't tell me it's alright!" He says loudly. "I lost almost 7 months with you because of... my fucking addiction" he says.

"And I understand" I say. He looks at me. "Tom you can't fix everything....everyone around you when you yourself are broken" I walk to him taking his hand in my. "I wanted you to help me. Trust me I really did. I was just scared" "scared that if something happened" "If I were to hurt you" he says. 

"I just wanted you safe" he says quietly. It sounded as if he was about to cry. "If you left" "Ela I don't think I could live without you" he says as a tear runs down his cheek. "But I'm here" I say as I wipe his cheek. "I will always be" I say.

He falls to my level hugging me. He was on his knees. His hands around my lower back.

"Tom" I say as he looks up.

Yes it was too soon, he just came today. But when you know you know. And I knew a long time ago.

"I love you"