Chapter 31
Bumalik ka na sa'kin
November, year Two Thousand and Twenty Three.
"Hindi na kayo nagsasama ni Cy, nag away kayo?" Jasen, who happened to be with me to buy food, asked.
I just smiled. Anong sasabihin ko?
Cy and I were still talking even though we aren't together anymore. I still want her to stay on my messages and check up on me.
"Cy!" He even shouted when we saw her walking down the stairs with her friends.
She smiled, I think? Umiwas na ako ng lingon nang lumingon siya e.
'Wag na lumingon, baka iyakan ko yan.'
Tahimik na lang rin akong kumain pagkatapos non. Wala akong sigla nitong mga nakaraang araw. Dahil na rin siguro sa nangyari at sa dami ng gagawin sa school.
[ako nalang kasi]
[bumalik ka na sa akin]
I sent sad emojis pa to show her my sadness.
[Cy : okay lang yan lods]
[Cy : HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA]
[hindi okay yonnn]
[ang hirap mag selos ng walang karapatan]
[ang illegal talaga sa feeling]
[i miss you na, balik ka na sakin]
I stared at my messages, sighed deeply, knowing that she will never respond to those.
I miss her so much.
Days have passed and they seem to be more tiring than before. Heavy workloads and family issues caught me off guard. I was so tired and tired.
[guess what]
[they're fighting again]
[ayoko na rito]
[papangit na nila ka bonding]
[Cy : magtago nalang muna sa room]
[Cy : take care ha]
Cy's messages became so comforting. Kahit na mag asaran lang kami ay hindi ko na naiaabot sa kaniya yung sama ng loob ko rito sa bahay.
I just don't want her to feel the madness that I have when she never did anything to make me mad.
Mahal na mahal kita, Cy.
I was positively talking to Cy the whole time. It was like I have two different personalities online and offline. I was so quiet the whole day because of what happened.
My family had lots of issues these days and I was quiet all the time.
School day went in as usual, but Cy wasn't eating with me anymore. Since we broke up, she was kinda uncomfortable with me.
