Prompt Poetry

cracked pearls

I sunk into the water
breathed in deep
exhaled and closed my eyes

I was still alive
but I was barely living

the weight of the pressure grew more and more
I was suffocating
I thought I might explode
I couldn't see
my eyes were tightly shut
I couldn't move
my arms and legs, scrambling for foundation

I let go
I opened my eyes and reached out to the light above
I sank deeper
I was dying
I was numb
I was breathless

I was like this way for an eternity
sinking
drowning
barely alive
eyes glossed over
skin decaying
lungs on fire
my thoughts empty
my throat wanting to speak

my eyes slowly close
too tired to stay open
too exhausted to hold on

then I was on the shore
the waves rushing over me and pulling back
like a deep inhale and a deep, elongated exhale
and I opened my eyes and saw the sun
and I was confused

but I remember breathing
I remember the warmth of the sun
and the sand on my face
and feeling like I could finally rest
I survived
I don't know how but I'm alive, for real this time

i was relieved 
and he was gone

until the next time

oh to be the cracked pearls on the nightstand in the bedroom I constantly drowned in