ER [wlw]

Chapter 1

A/N: This is a spin off of Selfless and a bit of Selfmade. Reading Selfless will show you a little of Emma in highschool.

I set out two plates of homemade English muffin breakfast sandwiches at the dining room table. One with a side of yogurt for my daughter's plate. With each plate I set down a glass of orange juice.

I typically wouldn't be up at 6:00am on a Saturday but here I am in my scrubs after getting called in.

I make my way to my eight year old's room, where she's sound asleep in her pajamas, hair covered by a pink bonnet. I have to take her to her Mamá before I go.

"Baby, wake up." I give her a gentle shake.

She groans, green eyes revealed through her thick lashes. "Why? It's early."

"I got called in to work, you're going to have to stay with your Mamá and Anne today." I already called Ari to let her know.

She sits up and shakes her head. "I-I don't w-w-want to go, I-I want t-t-to stay w-with you. T-T-oday was supposed t-to be our d-da-day." She mutters, bottom lip poked out.

My heart aches, her stutter becoming prominent shows how much this upsets her. She stutters occasionally but it's bad when she's feeling strong emotions. "I'm sorry baby, but they just called me in. Tomorrow I'll be off for four days, we'll have plenty of time together."

It's my second week as an ER nurse and while I'm to work 3 shifts a week, I am on call for a few of my off days.

I started off as an LPN at a nursing home, it wasn't what I wanted to do but it was the fastest way I could start making decent money to support me and Bellamy. When her other mother was put back in the picture and I had help with Bellamy I went back to school, it took me 4 years and some months working in the ICU to finally get this position.

"Wh-What's tomorrow?" She asks.

"Sunday. We can do whatever you want tomorrow." I smile.

She sighs. "Ok."

I lean down to kiss her head. "Come on I made your favorite, we can eat then I'll take you."

Still pouting she reluctantly gets up and we make our way to the dining room. My heart hurts from disappointing her.

This little girl, saved me and made me a better person. I always try my best to make her happy, her needs and wants always come before mine but I can't not come in when asked.

I never expected to get pregnant in highschool but I shouldn't have been surprised with how much I slept around. I was a careless teenager as much as I was awful to Bellamy's mother. She treated me good and loved me while I treated her like shit. To this day I feel guilty for how much I made her cry back then.

After finding out I was pregnant, I honestly hoped it was Ariel's even though she was my ex at the time because I knew unlike all the guys I slept with she would actually take responsibility.

She's intersex so it's very much possible for her to have kids with a woman, in case you were wondering. She has three other biological kids with her wife, Sadia.

When I told Ariel she told me it would basically ruin her life if I kept the baby because she wouldn't be able to go to the college she wanted and I honestly didn't want that because even though I treated her like shit back then I did love her. She wasn't saying it in a heartless way but just telling me the facts.

She hugged me while I cried and told me she would be there if I kept the baby but with all the shit I put her through I couldn't find it in me to tell her I was keeping Bellamy. So I didn't, I should have eventually but I never planned on it to be honest, I knew she was happy in her relationship with Sadia. I didn't want to ruin it.

Since, Ari was out of the picture I eventually had to tell my dad, I needed some support which he wasn't happy about at all, his wife was pregnant at the time, so he definitely didn't want to help me.

So, I was sent away to live with my Aunt Pam in Buffalo and she did help me. It was the first time I'd ever even met her. I didn't even know my mother had a sister out there. She was happy to take me in. I could honestly never repay her for all the things she did for me and Bellamy.

Ari only found out about Bellamy a few years ago because her best friend Ramona saw me at a McDonald's with Bellamy and told Ari because Bellamy looks just like Ari. With her blonde hair, green eyes, nose, and her face shape. The only of me she has is my olive complexion, curly hair, and mouth. Ari and Sadia, met us at a Ben and Jerry's and the rest is history.

Bellamy loves Sadia just as much as Ari and considers her a third mom. She calls her Anne, which is mom in Turkish and Sadia treats Bellamy like her own which I love. Before them and Ari's family, Bellamy only had me and Aunt Pam.

My baby deserves the world.

We both eat our very early breakfast, Bellamy quiet and grumpy from having to wake up early. Her having to stay with Ari and Sadia on our day also plays a factor into her state.

I put the dishes in the sink and help Bellamy put on a coat before my own. Then I grab her a blanket and carry her out of the house at her request. No matter how old she is she will always be my baby.

We load up into my Buick Enclave, Bellamy with the blanket over her lap. I start up the SUV and head to Ari's house.

"When I get off, I'll come pick you up. Ok?" I glance at her in the rearview mirror, her eyes staring out the window.

"Ok, w-when will you g-get off w-work?" She asks quietly after a yawn.

"7 tonight." I work 12 hour shifts. It's honestly exhausting mentally and physically but saving people's lives and the money make it worth it.

"T-That's a l-long time."

"I'll be there before you know it and while you wait you can think of what you want to do tomorrow."

She sighs, her cheeks puffed out. "K."

It doesn't take long until we're parked in front of Ari's house. I get out and open Bellamy's door.

"W-will you h-hold me?" She holds out her arms.

I chuckle. "Of course baby."

I pick her up out of her booster seat, her arms wrapped around my neck as I close the door. Her head laying on my shoulder.

I walk us up the steps to the fancy door of the large house and ring the doorbell.

It doesn't take long before Ari answers. Just as Bellamy she's in her pajamas, straight blonde hair disheveled and green eyes looking tired.

"Hi baby." Ari smiles at her.

"H-Hi." Bellamy mutters.

I kiss Bellamy's cheek. "Ok, I love you be good."

"I-I love y-you too." She sounds on the verge of tears.

She walks past Ari when I've set her down. Ari seems concerned as she watches our little girl disappear into the living room. Usually she would have stood by her Mamá's side as she adores her and looks up to her. She even does cheer with youth cheer team because she wants to be like Ari.

"She's upset that she doesn't get our day together." I explain, looking into green eyes, just like my daughter's.

Ari hums. "I see, are you going to to come get her when you get off?"

I nod. "Yeah."

"Ok, be safe." She smiles at me.

I return a smile back. "I will, bye." With that I leave.

Me and Ari didn't work out but we made a beautiful and pure hearted little girl who I am forever grateful for.

As I sit in the car I mentally prepare myself for work. You never know what to expect with this job but so far a part of me enjoys it.