Love live! X Reader

High Character x Group???

Man this is gonna be a little strange but it was a request and requests are requests LMAOOO

Your pov

'Another day, another hit,' I mutter to myself, taking a deep hit from my cart. I hold it in, savoring the warmth and comfort it brings. The smoke spreads throughout my chest and I exhale slowly watching the smoke dissipate in the evening sky. I let the haze wash over me, 'it's a perfect way to relax.'

As the group practice session wraps up, I gather up snacks, towels, and water bottles I brought for them. My friends deserve it, they work so hard. I head down towards the area they're in and hand them the snacks. The high makes everything feel slightly surreal.

"Hey! What's with the smell?" Honoka asks, wrinkling her nose curiously.

"Yeah, it doesn't smell great." Umi adds, as she frowns."

"It's weed," Maki states bluntly, her eyes narrowing as she studies me. My heart skips a beat. 'Shit have I been caught??' I dart my eyes around, avoiding contact with the members as I try to gauge their reactions.

"Maybe it's the students in the bathroom again," Nozomi says smoothly, giving me a subtle wink. I relax a little, grateful for her covering me. 

'Phew at least she has my back..' I think, feeling a rush of gratitude for her.

'Fuck, I'm way too high for this right now.' The euphoria from the cart is usually calming but right now it's making me feel more paranoid than anything. I try to focus on the conversation, but my mind keeps drifting.

"Hey, (Y/n)!?" Honoka calls out to me, snapping me back into reality. "You've been spacing out, and your eyes are red. What's with you? We asked if you wanted to come with us out tomorrow since it's a Saturday." Her voice filled with her usual cheer but there's a hint of worry in her eyes.

"Uh yeah sure. I have to go." I reply, feeling a sudden urge to escape.

I walk back to my house, the evening are cool against my flushed skin. My mind is a whirlwind of thoughts. I try to reconsider how often I turn to my cart for relief but right now I need to sleep this off.

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The next day, I meet up with the group. Despite my efforts I ended up getting high before the hangout. The feeling overtakes me and I can't concentrate or distract myself with the conversations.

'I'm hollow.'

The numbing sensation of the weed washes my body. I'm nothing. I'm not here.

As the hangout continues Maki pulls me off to the side.

"I know what you're doing." I avert my gaze. "Yeah? So what?" I mumbled back at her. "You're ruining your life." She adds, but there's a crack in her voice. I stare at her. The tension in the air is thick. I've never felt so uncomfortable before and that's when it happens. It's like muscle memory, I end up reaching for my cart in my pocket.

She scoffs and walks away from me. 'Whatever.' Maki doesn't understand. As we return back to the group she glares at me the whole time. I try to ignore her but it's as if she's piercing my skin with her gaze.

I try to joke with the group. Half is it due to the high and the other half is due to the uneasiness I feel. The group laughs at my jokes and my 'stupidity.' but I wish they knew what was going on. Deep down I want to make a change and I want their help.