So...After the change of events...What actually caused Saundarya to do this? Let's see..
UNEDITED...COMMENT MISTAKES
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Saundarya's POV,
Shock, betrayal, agony were the only emotions that I could spot on his face right now. He was looking at me with an ounce of hope, as if trying to find a speck of hesitation but I had practised this in front of the mirror long enough to hide all the possible emotions emerging up.
"Lotus....pl...ease...Don't do this..."
A sound of breaking and shattering, my heart. Guilt overriding my consciousness, tears brimming my eyes, as the blades of what she had said, cut me up from within, as if the pain was resurfacing, it was becoming difficult not to hug him and cry at that moment. I ironed myself up and pushed him a little away.
A hiss as he clutched his abdomen. My breath hitched as I had forgotten about his wound. The shawl slipped down my shoulder and I couldn't resist but say,
"You should rest.....Kunwarsa...."
"SEE ... .Look at it for yourself love.....You do care for me ... .why do you have to..."
"I HAVE SAID I FINALLY I. DON'T. LOVE. YOU. ANYMORE..RAJ..."
He came and held my shoulders, stood by me and held my chin softly, making me meet his eyes, which makes me lost in them , trapped in the forever beauty of the colour, green, until I forget any other colour that exists, I realised that I love the colour green, and love him all the more.
My mind screamed from inside, 'I AM LYING', but it never came to my mouth to be spoken.
"Look into my eyes and tell me.....You don't love me anymore..."
My eyes widened, I will be unable to lie to his face, looking into his eyes, I am just doing it for the greater good, but if I tell him, he will just say, I will leave the Kingdome for you. No, I have to. I looked into his eyes, having swirling russet brown images of me, as tears were pouring down his face, as if I was not crying.
I numbed my feelings, pinning down my guilt, and self criticism I opened my mouth to say as he said,
"I need you Saundarya....I love you too much...Please...I can't live without you....I beg you please..rethink once more, even if you have a speck or a drop of love and care left for me, I will be happy enough to fill your heart with it...Please..just once..."
"Do you think I did not ... .I found every reason to love you Raj ... .But there is no future for us...we live as different individuals and NO, there is not a ..............drop.......more left....My heart is void of you..."
He gritted his teeth and clenched his jaw, trying to pull back his sobs. It was an ocean, where I swimmed everyday, his love for me. A drop? it was a full sea, an ocean, a deep one. I sighed as I clutched the shawl tightly and brought up my underlying courage to look at him, into his eyes, trapping myself there for the last time, because. I knew I wouldn't be able to look into his eyes ever again.
"I. DONT. LOVE. YOU. ANYMORE..Happy..now you believe me right......now please let me go..."
His hand loosened around my shoulders. I could see him breaking, completely, as he shut his eyes, I moved towards the door, wrapping the shawl around me correctly. I halted when I heard him say,
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Saundarya ~ The Epitome Of Sacrifice
Historical FictionThe great war in between the two of the greatest kingdoms occurred. The Cholas and the Rajputs. She was the captive and he was the captivator. She was the princess who was committed to someone else, tied by the strong thread of marriage. She was che...
