Saundarya ~ The Epitome Of Sacrifice

Chap 25 - He caught me

This chapter is my favourite chapter....

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Saundarya's POV,

I had woken up to the sound of water, a calmness spread through the woods, with the sunshine pouring itself to the fullest. Stretching myself I turned to my right. He was not there. A fresh bundle of white saree was what was kept with a note that he was in the bazaar.FATALITIES. He had seen my weakness, my breaking down, my blind trust yet had never taken advantage of it. I took a deep breath, remembering that he had not answered my question yesterday night.

A thing that was clear to me was that the factor of love never existed between me and Nallasivan. It was just the duties and the bond that led me to believe that I liked him. He had never praised me, all he did was deny every single thing I ever tried, made me feel worthless and unwanted. I never got hold of his toxic personality until now.

My heart and mind, both yearned for peace, love and someone to be with. I don't know what to account for this, but I think I liked him. I was falling for him, a thin string of love that was tied in between us, and I was afraid that he would deny me. I couldn't take another blow, hence I was just clearing it out. If he likes someone else, then I would never want him close to me, I will pave a path of distance from him, so deep and wide that crossing over and reaching to him would be a difficulty.

He hadn't answered. I giggled, when I remembered his bare, naked upper body, having chiselled and perfectly carved, he was the abode of perfection.The way he smiles, gets my heart to flutter and the trench of butterflies bursts in my stomach. Oh how I wanted, cup his face, give a kiss on his cheek and claim him to be mine. But I couldn't, except giving a peck in his palm. His expression was so adorable. I giggled again and then turned serious. I was behaving like a young girl who was admiring someone from afar, and desperately wanted him.

Did I? I did want him.

I exhaled. It could never ever be possible that he would love me. I was an unwanted woman, who was discarded by her own husband. Who would want such a woman? He will go for a young fair beauty , and I stood nowhere up to the mark.

Shrill sounds of different birds were pushing me onto deep thoughts, getting a frown etched across my face, tugging the ends of my lips downwards. My eyes fell on the fresh white and pink sheer saree, having a dozen bangles, a new pair of anklets and a new waist chain, two big kundans and a gold chain. Simplicity and eathearl. That is what can describe it. The design was simple, yet elegant, giving a look of otherworldliness, an apsara. I knew he liked simplicity a lot. I had never seen him overdressed with jewellery, unlike most of the prince and princess. He was always clothed regally yet looked like a royal. His stature, position and the way he carried himself was almost up to none. He was different.Maybe my perception of him was different, but I didn't care. I thought of having a bath before he arrived. So I grabbed the clothes, keeping all the jewellery in the cave and ventured outside. The cool breeze immediately hit me, and a shiver enveloped me, and my gaze fell on the inviting waters. A smile immediately formed on my face, as I thought of the last time I actually took a bath. I grimaced at the fact and immediately I felt his hold all over my arms. My scalp suddenly hurt at the memory of my hair being pulled, my hand touched my cheek and traced the scar under my jaw. Only for him. I hated him.

I shook the thoughts out of my mind, as I pulled the saree of my body slowly, standing at the edge of the water. The path was rocky and slippery as the constant sprays of water that fell all over from the crashing violent waterfall. I kept the clothes on the rock nearby and stripped naked, as I entered the water. I gasped at how cold it was, freezing all within my bones. After a while it finally soothed all the burns and scratches unattended, which lay within the cover of my petticoat and blouse. I sinked in as my eyes became heavy at the comfort,My palms rubbed the potential dirt off my body.