The girl next door, - ᴛ.ᴋᴀᴜʟɪᴛᴢ

chapter forty-one.

• SPM VS LOS - SPM

4:39AM.

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I couldn't sleep. I just couldn't. I felt so miserable and humbled. It was pathetic. I cried for about 20 minutes before I forced myself to get up. Bill and I went to the studio for a while, but we were incredibly quiet, and none of us felt verbal.

"I'm gonna go visit Mandy." I said as I glanced at Bill, pulling my beanie over my tied up dreads and my hood over my head. I grabbed an unfinished cigarette from my ash tray and took it outside as I exited the studio.

There were a few girls there, snapping photos. And it wasn't the first time I'd seen them. I was going to yell at them, but I just saundered over to my car and got in.

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As I pulled into a gas station, I looked down at Mandy's phone in my hand. I'd been holding it for a while, flipping it open and closed quietly. I couldn't get any of what happened out of my head.

I just sat there for a few minutes, staring at the girls approaching my car in the rear view mirror. They had followed me. What the fuck?

I winded down my window, glancing at them and then down at my cigarette as I flicked it at one of them. She then grabbed it off of the ground, putting it out on my car.

I quickly got out, watching her walk backwards as I came over her, and punched her square in the face. She fell down and I pushed her again, glancing at her friend who was recording before I got back into my car, and sped off.

My expression was unreadable. My fingers were tight around the wheel, my knuckles a mix of red and white.

This wasn't the only time I'd seen those girls, nor at the studio. They've came to my hotel rooms, Charlotte's house, the studio, everywhere. I couldn't go anywhere without being harassed. That's why I bought an apartment not long ago. Just needed to wait until they cleared off; but they didn't.

And now I'm gonna be everywhere. This is bad. Incredibly bad. Out of my hands bad. But fuck, if she wanted to leave she could have.

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I got out of my car, checking the parking lot quietly before heading into the hospital, and the reception.

"Mandy Katsaros?" I mumbled, watching the lady type up her name before glancing at me. "What's your relation to the patient?" She asked.

"Boyfriend."

"Room 213." She said before turning away and looking back at her computer.

I nodded a little, walking down the hall towards the elevator. I stepped in, my hands going into my pockets once I had pressed one of the buttons. My eyes were stuck on the floor, my eyebrows still furrowed in misunderstanding.

It'd been such a long night. I was contemplating just driving to Georg's for the night instead of coming home or getting a hotel room somewhere. but then I'd most likely be seen.

I headed out of the elevator, my eyes flickering over each room before I finally reached Mandy's. I slowly pushed the door open, taking in her state and the nurse beside her.

Her wrists were bandaged excessively, and there was a tube in her nose. Her heartbeat was slow. She just looked completely broken.

"Is she alright?" I mumbled, glancing at the nurse. "Why are there tubes in her nose?"

"She slipped into cardiac arrest. There was barely anything in her system but pills, so we had to pump her stomach and feed tube her. It's just for now." The nurse replied, glancing at her.

"Cardiac arrest?" I muttered, approaching her bed and sitting down. I gently took her hand, rubbing the top of it with my thumb. "To fix a vein," the nurse said quietly. "Her wrists were cut vertically. It was a tough few hours but she'll heal nicely if careful."

She was all bloody. Not her hospital gown, but her skin. Bandages and gauze, then the IV in her arm.

"You have 20 minutes." The nurse then said curtly.

I looked back at Mandy once the nurse left, my hand in hers. I was careful not to jostle anything too much and instead just watched her quietly.

I noticed her heartbeat go up slightly on the monitor beside me. From what was low, started to get pretty high.

My eyes flickered to her hand, my thumb slowly rubbing her skin in gentle circles before I looked back at her face quietly.
"I love you. I'm sorry I didn't say it sooner."
I murmured, bringing her hand to my lips and kissing it softly.

I then sat down, releasing her hand and placing mine in my lap. I tilted my head slightly, breathing out as I looked away.

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It'd been about 15 minutes, and Mandy was still resting quietly. Her heartbeat was slow again, and it scared me every time it would skip a beat or two.

She would stir occasionally, or her fingers would twitch, but nothing more.

I tilted my head slightly to the side, sighing as I stood up and leaned down to press a gentle kiss against her forehead before I pulled away to glance at the nurse who was standing by the door, arms crossed.

"Relax, shaft. I'm going." I muttered, pulling my hood up and walking past her. I could hear the door click shut behind me, and I glanced in once more before walking off.