The school year is coming to a close
The final hour
Where I make my decision
Is coming closer and closer
The decision that will seal my fate
This decision is my choice
I want to do it
I am ready to take that leap
With the one I love
There is still a weight on my chest
Dreading the outcome,
Dreading what they would do
I'm preparing for the worst
Because I know they will not take it kindly
They will not take to me making my decisions
My adult decisions,
The ones that are best for me
I know deep in my soul,
That if I listened to her
Listened to her wants instead of my own,
I would have been miserable,
Lonely, an empty shell of who I once was
All because I let my reason for living
For being happy go
I would have been nothing,
An empty shell of nothing
Pretending to be okay
Masking my true emotions
Hiding myself behind a persona
I'm glad I never listened
Otherwise I never would have realised
I am a caterpillar
In my cacoon
Changing and growing
To become something more than I already am
A caterpillar waiting to transform
To transform into a butterfly
To expand my wings
And to fly my own path
Just waiting for the day to come
The day where I'll be a magnificent creature
Emerging from a shell
A cacoon of control and of not my opinions
Shedding those layers to become who I'm meant to be
Someone who is not broken and pretending
Someone who chooses what's right for them
From caterpillar to butterfly,
It shows the potential growth
Of how much I've grown as a person,
As an adult
Learning I need to do what's right for me,
What makes me happy,
What defines me
The day will come when I turn
Into a magnificent butterfly
With purple wings

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PoésieThis is the second book in my poem collections. It is a continuation of "Poems From My Mind".