How hard is it to let things go?
Why can't you accept I want to do my own thing?
I want to do what makes me happy
It's so frustrating being back 'home'
It doesn't feel like home anymore
I've been here for a few weeks
It feels good to be back,
But it's not the same
I'm going back to how I felt in high school
Before I went to college
It's not great
It's not good
I'm not feeling 100%
I've gone back to being
Depressed, insecure, low self-esteem
Feeling so bad about myself
That I'm going back into old eating habits
Where I skip breakfast and lunch
Feeling so bad about myself
That I'm not motivated to do anything
I always have been mentally unwell at 'home'
Always the therapy friend
Always hiding my feelings
Being 'home' is not great
They're always, always
Saying horrible things
About my boyfriend to my face
Even though I let them know I don't like it,
They don't care about my feelings or him
That's what hurts
They don't take my feelings,
My feelings into consideration
I am so done with their bullshit
I can't take it anymore
I'm sick and tired of it
Me telling how I feel about them
Badmouthing my boyfriend
They have no respect for me or him
They have to eventually,
Eventually accept I chose my boyfriend
I choose to love him
And have him as my partner in life
The lack of respect for me and him
Irritates me to no end
Also my mother of all people,
Trying to get in my head wanting me
Me! to breakup with him
It won't happen because we have been
Through so much together
YOU ARE READING
Thoughts Turning to Ink on Paper
شِعرThis is the second book in my poem collections. It is a continuation of "Poems From My Mind".
