Uncertain white

Deciphering Enigma

A few days later, I went to another historic place. It was around 30 miles from the town. It was an old abandoned temple made of rocks without light entering inside, totally dark but it was not weird to see the statues of idols were without heads as thieves and invaders tried to steal their heads. That place is still very deep in the dense forest, and mysteriously I found a painting in between a crack of the wall as I peeked inside the crack. It was some kind of a message written in some ancient language, I started to decipher it but this time I couldn't do it, after a few mins.

I started walking forward in the forest and after a few miles, I saw a huge rock which was shining bright as an emerald because of sun rays, covered with creepers and climbers after observing the condition of that area I was sure that people don't travel this deep in the forest, as a science student I tried to relate my knowledge of ecological succession with the beautiful scene in front of my eyes and figured out that this place is just been untouched of human from a few centuries.

I tried to remove those plants and shrubs from the rock to take a picture of it but the battery of my phone betrayed me, then I noticed that there was something written on the rock by indentation or scratching engraved in the same language I saw earlier in the temple, but before I could think anything, it started a light shower of rain and wild animals started to make noises and running in a chaotic manner.

I also started running heading back towards the sheds around, but nothing could save me from being drenched by rain so I decided to run towards the temple before it was dark as the echoing thunder was thrilling me with adrenaline rushing through my veins. The clear weather allowed me to return to town after a few hours of rain. As I rested, I kept thinking about the questions I have yet to find answers to in my life, during all these journeys, is it any type of Omen or indication for me? I figured out a name for all these incidents as ' Alytos '.

As the year passed by the academic pressure on my brain increased, didn't I ever try to bother with my medications from the last few months? After shifting back to my town, I was living with my books and 2 friends I used to meet once in a while in a park or in a café mostly near the city lake. Yet, I was cold as the temperature at which water has max density. But one thing I do enjoy the most is cooking and especially making hot coffee, as my time is dedicated to my work including poetry, novels, and preparing for my exams. My time spent with my diary increased, as it has every part of my soul inscribed in its pages including the bucket list.

arie's feeling
' hi, I am Arie Ashby's brown hardcover diary. I am very precious to him, I have his heart and soul. When he writes on my pages, it feels like he is imparting a part of his soul to me. In the urban wilderness, he is hiding under the sheds of my canopy hoping to find some real love. The first poem he wrote was -

FISH

Happiness is like waves
at the seashore and

I am simply sober solitude
starfish, maybe beautiful
but still doesn't matter at all

He said " I don't write with feelings and emotions,but absorb them from your pages"

as he was numb, dumb, and heartbroken alone in the middle of nowhere when he found me. That's when I urged him to reply "Events are the waves, in life as an Ocean, they'll come and go but life is the thing that matters ". But how can anyone hear me? I thought I was wrong. He could hear me, feel me, and with me he tried to process the emotions & feelings that were given to him by this world.

He felt like he was Kafka but with a better approach to life. He had long wavy hair with a young mustache and beard, deep thinker and an ambitious man, and was a master of flow
state. Not in fantasy but beyond the limits he could think as if this whole world is his canvas and people are characters in his novel.

He was a mysterious person, totally unpredictable but could be trusted by his close ones, had very little human interactions and even a diminutive friend circle but had another level of depth in relations and in his words, thinking beyond his ages.

Although he could plan everything in his imagination, whenever things went out of his imagination he said " Amor fati " an ancient Greek phrase used by stoics. He also tries to maintain stoicism in his life but couldn't understand it properly at this age.

Today, when I was reading the newspaper, in the main headlines there was a boy(15 years old) who committed suicide by shooting himself with a pistol. I realized now after a few days everyone will forget about him, and neither could he serve any great purpose in this world. Dying like this is none less than a shame/insult to this human form of existence.

There are wars and destruction going on in the world, but what's new is that creation and destruction are simultaneous processes, destruction occurs because of the tendency of the universe to increase entropy, and creation is because of the tendency of living beings to reproduce.
Love & war are just like day & night, a coin's sides, and both are depicted with red color. The reason for war is always love, we love our pieces of land, our people, money, rights, etc. We fight for them. Everything is fair in love and war they say, but why do they fear war? War has its own beauty as the love itself, that grey sky with dark ashes, the land with the white blood flowing and clotting all over.

There is a theory in ecology that when there is competition between two species they both get negatively affected by it, so it stands true in the case of real wars, those white bloods killing each other.

There was a murder in the back side of my house where there is an abandoned fuel station, it was said that the victim was living there for a few months. He has a son & a daughter, both Were out of his reach.
It was midnight, the street lights were off and the surveillance cameras nearby were all off, that's when he got hit by a pipe or something in the head and died on the spot. The identity of both the victim & murderer Is still unknown. Maybe it is another alytos event

Although it has no impact on anything in the colony or neighborhood, anyways the year passed by and now it's Time for exams, two languages & three Science subjects including the practicals & viva.
All went well enough to be passed and left me a day before the festival of Holi, although I didn't have any plans but few Friends succeeded in pulling me out into the color fields of the city. Having fun at every place we found voided colorless.

But the next day there was a video going viral of an illegal fireworks factory being set on fire and simultaneously the bodies Were flying 100 meters High in the sky, explosives Were just jumping around like toads. After the central aviation minister went to the scene of the fire, the central investigation agency confirmed the escape of the factory owner. It's been around 5 months Since last contacted. The cause of the incident is said to be the poor quality of wiring in machinery set up in the illegal factory. Their failure to follow standard norms prevents them from getting the desired result license.

Now, it is the month of April, 2nd attempt of the engineering entrance exam. May & June also have many entrance exams plus this year it's general elections in this quarter.