Love Sick

23

A/N: VERY SHORT CHAPTER I HAD NO TIME TO WRITE THIS WEEK IM SO SORRRRY

RYLIE

"What the hell is this place?" I utter as I walk in a pile of glass. I am in what looks to be an abandoned house, theres graffiti all over the walls, smashed windows, and the house is also literally falling apart. 

Aaron is going to kill me. Hopefully not, but what does he expect me to think bringing me here?

Aaron chuckles as he puts his hand out to help me get over the small ledge blocking us from a balcony. "It's my hang out spot, I come here every so often to just-- y'know hang out." 

As I shake my head and let out a tiny giggle, I grab ahold of his hand and step on the ledge, and then off. 

"So how many of your hookups have you brought here?" I joke, nudging his forearm. 

Aaron looks down at me and scoffs, "Damn, Rose. You really think that low of me?" he says as he puts a dramatic hand over his heart. "Honestly, none." he says as he kicks a rock and glances to me. "You're the only one, except your not even a hookup, Rose."

I sit down on a bench that is literally falling apart. "So what am I?" 

Aaron grins at me before sitting down next to me. "Fuck I don't know." He throws his arms in the air. 

"Me either, one second you're blackmailing me about my overdose, and now your bringing me to your hang out spot." 

He puts his arm on the back of the bench and sighs, "Well, yeah. I didn't know you overdosed until like an hour before I confronted you about it." a long pause. "Tell me about it." 

My eyes immediately go to his, "Tell you about?" he nods. "How do I even do that, Aaron?" 

He simply shrugs before breaking our eye contact and looking out to the sunsetting view. "Tell me what led up to it," he breathes in. "Tell me what was going through your mind." 

I shake my head. "I-I don't know," I hesitantly say. "I mean I was just so compelled by it that I needed to use every second of everyday. " I sigh. "Then it just got too much and I couldn't handle it. Then I almost died."

"How long were you using?" he softly asks.

I swallow the lump in my throat before replying. "Three months, two days."

Aaron lets out a breath, "Goddamn Rylie." he then pulls me into a hug. I swallow my tears and try my hardest not to cry, I then say, "Yeah, I even have a fucking journal about it." I look up still trying not to let the tears fall. "How pathetic is that?" I let out. 

Aaron sighs, before holding my head to his chest. "Not at all, Rose. You went through hell." 

I laugh, still fighting my tears. "I have it with me if you want to read it." I blurt out. I've made it a thing to bring my old journal with me everywhere. I'm not exactly sure why, but maybe just to remind myself that it's okay to not be okay sometimes. 

He lets go of me, "Are you sure?"

I softly smile, "Yeah," I reach into my bag and grab it, the green leather cover of it brings back too many unwanted memories. "Here."

He grabs the green book from me and returns the smile. And then, he reads. 

He reads from the first page to the last. His emotions changing from everything to nothing all at once, and once he finishes it. 

He looks up at me, and gives me a soft smile. "I'm here for you." is all he says. 

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It's been a few long hours of Aaron and I hanging out and I have to say that he's is very fun to be around, and that's that I'm not drunk or anything.

I giggle at his lame joke he just made. "Oh that was the worst joke I've ever heard." I say as I tilt my head up at him. I am laying on the ground while he is still on the bench. 

"I would like to see you say a better on--" 

And all of a sudden I am shocked back into reality because I have seen the notification from Zach, he is calling me. 

And I guess Aaron saw the dissatisfaction on my face because he asked. "What is it?" I roll my eyes and face my phone towards him to show him the caller ID. "Oh," he says. "Are you gonna answer it?" 

I think for a moment, "Nah, he's been getting on my nerves lately." 

Aaron chuckles before sliding off the bench and onto the ground exactly where I now lay beside him.  "Do you even like him?" Aaron randomly decided to blurt out. 

I chuckle at his sudden question. "Well, I mean yeah." I sigh out, "I dont like the way he treats me sometimes but-- I-- To be honest I dont know." I shrug. "Does it look like I like him?"

Aaron lets out a laugh. "Rose, if you really like him you'll feel it in your gut, you can't ask me you have to know."

I let out a long and frustrating sigh. "That doesn't help with my question, you know." I say as I turn my head to face his.

Aaron lets out a chuckle and looks my way. "You need to figure it out yourself." I notice his eyes flicker to my lips before returning my eye contact. 

"I dont know." is all I say before returning my gaze on his lips.

And the a very long moment, we are admiring each other faces. Examining them. Then from one second to the next, his lips are touching mine.

And I'm not pulling back. Why am I not pulling away?

Our mouths move with the others as our tongues fight for dominance. 

"Rose," Aaron moans out. "We shouldn't do this." he breathes into me, before making me roll on top of him. 

I shale my head, still holding this kiss. "No," I shake my head once more, "No, we shouldn't."

That is until I get yet another phone call from Zach, making me snap back into the real world and  break the kiss. 

What have I just done?

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A/N OMG THEY KISSED FINALLLLYYY I HOPE YALL ENJOYED THIS CHPATER EVEN THO ITS HELLLLAAAA SHORT I just came back from vacation (my uncles wedding) and have had no time to write n I literally wrote this chapter in a single sitting so Im really hungry rn and will go be eating okay bye bye cya next time!!