feels like - charles leclerc

30

I wake up to my phone ringing beside me. I careful remove myself from Shawn's arms before heading to his balcony to talk on the phone. I answer before even reading the name and I regret it as soon as I hear the voice on the otherside.

"I'm surprised you answered Lina" Charles sighs.

" I didn't realize it was you or else I wouldn't have. Are you just calling to annoy me or is there a reason? It's the middle of the night here you know?"

"I know and I'm sorry I just- I woke up and saw the post you made."

I sigh knowing where this is going.

"And you want to know if we're dating?"

"I know I don't deserve to know since I broke up with you but I guess it's just been on my mind more than I need during a season," he pauses and takes a deep breath.

"I'm sorry for what I did to you and I think I'll regret till the day I die. Truly I know I never deserved you. You cared for me more than anyone else has and I took you for granted. I know you're happy now I can see it, we all can. You deserve to be happy. But I miss you. I thought I would be okay seeing you move on but I'm not and I'm sorry. I, I just want to know for sure."

"I know I don't owe you peace of mind but I'll tell you anyways so you'll leave me alone. We recently started dating. Yes, I am really happy. No, I don't plan on leaving him cause you just now decided that it's me you want. Now if that's all you wanted I'm going to hang-"

"Please just talk to me for a bit? I miss you, Arthur misses you, fuck everyone in my family misses you. If this is our last call please just let me hear your voice-"

"I have nothing to talk about with you. Please don't call me again. We both know it's not good for either of our relationships." I say before hanging up.

I sit on the balcony just staring into dark night sky. My mind shockingly quiet for what had just happened. Then it trickles in. How dare he? After all he put me through, how dare he call me and say he misses me when he pushed me away. He moved on first and now that I've found happiness he's hurting?

I hear a gentle knock on the door frame. I turn and see Shawn standing there, rubbing the sleep from his eyes.

"Are you okay? Who was that on the phone?" He wraps his hands around me as I do the same. I lie my head on his chest, letting myself hear his heartbeat before I speak.

"Charles wanted to know if we were dating. I told him yes and to stop calling me."

He stiffens a bit after hearing his name before relaxing again.

"What all did he say?"

"He apologized saying he wish he would've appreciated me more and that he missed me. I told him I was happy with you and I wasn't going to leave you just because he called. He wanted to keep talking but I told him to leave me alone."

I feel a soft kiss at the top of my head.

"You are the strongest woman I know. I'm so proud of how far you've come."

I look up at him while still hugging him.

"I wouldn't be like this now if it weren't for you."

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After our conversation we headed back to bed. We had a lot planned for the next day so we decided to get as much rest as we could after that disruption.

Currently, we were sat in Shawn's car driving to a studio he frequently went to when recording his albums. We decided to record a little video to show the behind the scenes of making a song. I grabbed the camera and started recording as we pulled into the parking lot of the studio.