"met you at the right time, this is what it feels like."
When Catalina moves back home to Monaco, she never thought she'd be caught up in the media with a Formula 1 driver. While navigating through the mess of intrusive journalist and obsessive fan...
I sat there watching her laugh and smile again. The video she posted a few days ago letting me know that I was too late in realizing what I had done. She looked at me with love and pride like that once. I was the one helping her write her music. I was her muse and she was my support. I had it all and I let it go.
I hear footsteps approaching my bedroom and I quickly shut off the video on my phone.
"Babe, are you ready?" Alexandra calls from the doorway.
"Yes of course." I say as I get up from my spot and walk over to her.
It was Miami media day. This is the closest I've been to seeing Lina since she left the hotel that night. I was told that Mercedes had invited Shawn. Their team reached out to mine to make sure it wouldn't cause any conflicts which they assured them it would not. I wasn't sure if she would be here too or if he had even accepted.
I stared out the window as music played silently from the car radio. Alexandra next to me talking about some new project she was working on for her University. I felt terrible knowing I wasn't paying attention to her like she deserved but recently the idea of Catalina had been plaguing my mind. The images of her and Shawn were burned into my brain. I didn't deserve to feel jealous but I couldn't help it. It made it feel hard to love anyone else when part of me still loved and cared for her.
Alex was everything I needed right when she came into my life. I was stressed about management and the pressure to break up with Lina and she was there to listen. One thing lead to another and we started talking as more than friends after the break up. I needed a distraction and Alex didn't seem to mind as long as I was with her. She was charlotte's friend and maybe she was doing this all for revenge or something but I was too blind to see it in the moment.
Now almost 5 months after the break up I felt it all coming to me. Everything we had planned. Everything we had experienced. It was hard to let it all go. But I did what I did and now I had to sit and watch the person I love fall in love with someone else. I tried to distract myself from thinking anymore so I grabbed my phone. Of course like always there she was, staring right back at me through the screen. Almost as though she was haunting me. She was everywhere I looked.
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catalina.jacquet: FOR ONE NIGHT AND ONE NIGHT ONLY!!!! I am happy to announce that next weekend I will be doing a show at the Barclay's Center to play a few songs for you guys! Maybe some new ones, mostly some old ones. You'll have to come see which ones I choose 😉. Can't wait to bring in this new era with you all❣️ tickets go on sale today at 12pm est 💋
comments....
user1638: this is everything i HAVE to be there
user9372: omg bring shawn on stage with you! |catalina.jacquet: 🤔🤫
shawnmendes: can't wait to see you perform 💛 |catalina.jacquet: 🤭💛
lilymhe: oh i'm bringing EVERYONEEEEE to see you babes |catalina.jacquet: just let me know the names and i'll take care of it 🫶🏼
user3826: i know for a fact half the grid will be there
maxverstappen1: i'm bringing kelly and p |catalina.jacquet: i would love for them to be there <3
I stared at the post in front of me and then looked over at Alex. She was typing away at her phone so I turned back to mine. There was no way I could go but something in me hoped I would. Maybe then I could catch her after the show. I could explain everything and we could try to go back to how things were.
I sat there day dreaming for a bit before being brought back to reality. The door of our car opened to the paddock entrance. I had a job to do and nothing or no one could distract me.
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Catalina's POV
We had sat in the car waiting to pull up to the paddock entrance. I had briefed Shawn on everything and told him how we would definitely be photographed as we entered and wherever else we went. Especially now with my concert officially announced, we were bound to be stopped at some point.
As the door to our car opened, Shawn stepped out first and he helped me get down as well. I looked around and waved to all the fans waiting by the entrance. We made our way over making sure to talk to and take pictures with as many people before entering the paddock.
As we entered the swarm of photographers started taking photos of us walking in. I waved to kym as he was someone I was used to seeing a lot during my time on the paddock.
"I didn't think I would run into you again Catalina. This is a nice surprise."
"You can't get rid of me that easily Kym. I have to support my best friends!" I responded. We talked and laughed a bit more before we moved on to find the Mercedes hospitality. Shawn had been invited to watch the race from their garage while I was invited to be with Williams. We planned to stay at our respective teams for the race but for the time before and after I would take the time to introduce Shawn to all my friends and favorite spots.
"Okay so this is Mercedes' garage." I said as we walked down the pit lane. It was filled with people walking around and preparing things for the race in a few hours.
Shawn left to meet up with the Mercedes team member who would be with him throughout the race. I walked back down the pit lane to williams. As I passed Ferrari's garage I couldn't help but look in slightly. I spotted Carlos who I happily said hi to before continuing with my walk. As I walked away I felt a hand tap my shoulder. I turned around to see Alexandra standing there smiling at me.
"Hi I'm sorry this must be super weird but I love your music and I'm a big fan of yours."
She caught me off guard so I stood there for a few seconds just blinking trying to figure out what was going on. She was being nice so I guess that wasn't an issue. This just felt very awkward. I realized I should probably say something back so I smiled back at her before talking.
"Oh hi yes I do know you. Uh you um look great by the way I love your dress!" I spoke quickly. I wanted the ground to open beneath me to save me from the embarrassment I was feeling.
"Thank you! So I wanted to see if something was okay with you. I saw you were doing a show next week and I would love to go but I don't want to get tickets if it makes you uncomfortable or anything. I know we've had our differences but I do think you're very talented."
"Oh! Thank you. Um yeah that's fine I really don't mind you being there. Actually you know what, don't worry about buying your ticket. I can save some space for you where the other drivers and their girlfriends I know are gonna be. That way maybe you'll be able to be with more people you know."
It's not like I would be seeing them a lot anyways because I would be performing. I know if we go out as a group we might see one another, but that wasn't really a problem with me as long as they both stayed a ways away from me.
"Oh my god thank you so much! So I would just need two passes for me and um well Charles if that's okay."
"Oh yeah that's fine. Just message me later on instagram so I can remember to let my team know." I said my goodbyes to her before quickly speed walking over to the Williams garage.
